Wednesday, April 22, 2015

I'm not sure where God is leading me

I could become someone like Kathryn Kuhlman and do faith healings in places like the old Shrine Auditorium (but this isn't what I sense God wants of me). I might just really develop this blog site into something really special(this likely is a part of what God wants). Going walkabout and traveling the U.S. Canada and the world and meeting people(this I feel is already starting and happening).

My biggest concern is my family. Since we are an affluent family money is not the problem. For me, the problem might be: "Oh Dad's really eccentric" That actually I could live with. But, I would be upset with: "Dad has gone goofy following his "Walkabout theme" and we have to fly to meet him in strange places around the world to spend time with him. This would concern me some. In other words I would like my wife and kids to love and to respect what is happening to me. Right now, I'm in such extreme transition they fear for my life.

For example, two experiences of the past two days. Archangel Michael two or three days ago says: "I think I can get you on the 5 something flight on Alaska Air lines to Portland. I say "Great. Let's go do that." He says, "Just drive to the airport and park and I'll do the rest."

He was right even though it was more amazing than most things I've experienced lately the way this all came about. I board the plane and they take my walker (bicycle grips and a seat with 8 inches wheels that I pull or push or sit in when I need to rest from the consequences of my operation to my general well being.

But, after boarding I had a problem. I had Blunt trauma epilepsy between ages 10 to15 I cannot look at strobe lights without fainting. I did not want to faint but a Bombadier prop jet has twelve bladed fans for their prop jets and the one I was sitting next to was strobing off the sun and I was passing out. So, I had to cover my eyes completely until it stopped doing that. This appears to be a start to the problems I then had.  After we were airborne I began coughing (from the oxygen put down my windpipe during the April 4th operations which also prevents you sleeping much for about 4 weeks after. So, as I started the dry hacking cough like you are breathing sand in the desert I started to worry because the coughing went on and on. This sometimes makes me throw up. So, I jumped up and asked the beautiful young stewardess for a throw up bag which she gave me. Then she asked if there was a doctor on board and there was. There was an ICU specialist there who then sat with me as they gave me oxygen. I told them I had to stop coughing because I couldn't get enough air until then. So, they put an oxygen mask on me the rest of the trip while the ICU specialist doctor checked my pulse and kept asking me to keep the oxygen mask on rather than trying to talk to him. I finally calmed down so I could then go into a meditative state and then I was okay. Then when we landed in Portland the paramedics came on board to make sure I was okay too. I said I was fine that my coughing was triggered by the way the oxygen was being added to the cabin and it irritated my lungs. They released me to go rent a car at the Airport after I convinced them this was all true which it was so I walked away okay.

Next incident, After they gave me my walker my kids (oldest daughter 26 and her 30 year old live in Boyfriend confronted me and told me I shouldn't be renting a muscle car. I was pretty angry at them at first for interfering with me especially after their texting me and telling my coming to Portland was inconvenient to them now. However, I realized they had shown up because they love and care about me and only wanted to protect their friend and father figure. So finally I relented and let them drive me to a hotel even though it was going to cost me 60 dollars in taxi when I wanted to pick up my Camaro muscle car 2015 covertible from a rental agency in portland airport.

But, before I got my muscle car I had decided to go walking and shopping with my walker. Archangel Michael said to me, "You may not come back from this journey if you go outside now."

My reaction: "What? HOw is that even possible?"

Here's what happened. I became playful and childlike in my thoughts and began to see my walker as a skateboard with me 12 to 17 years old. This was dangerous and almost killed me.

So, while I was going backwards while sitting on my walker down a ramp I didn't see it had a curb because I thought it was a ramp without a curb instead. So, when I was going backwards about 5 to 10 miles and hour skateboard style I suddenly went off the curb and into the pavement. Now I thought I might have internal bleeding from hitting the pavement so hard with my belly. But, if Archangel Michael hadn't warned me I likely would have split my head in two on the pavement and would have died not realizing my danger.

So, because he warned me I was more ready that something strange was going to happen so when it did I rolled like a gymnast while protecting my head from injury. It hurt really bad but I got up because I can take a fall because I'm very big boned like a football lineman. I have never been able to break any bones in my life except my nose and my little toe on my right foot. 



The hint was from Saint Germain to me in my 20s when he appeared to me more than once in various forms. After that, he told me that I was one of his many "bodies" here on earth that carried his mind and Aura. I understood this after one amazing experience I will quote here from my dragonofcompassion.com site:

if you go to the dragonofcompassion.com site this is under the Saint Germain word button there:

Saint Germain

 quote by Saint Germain paraphrased," WHETHER BEINGS LOVE ME OR FEAR ME IS IRRELEVANT. IF BEINGS GIVE ME THEIR ATTENTION I WILL TAKE THEM TO ENLIGHTENMENT AND BLISS."
INTRODUCTION
My wife just reminded me that most of the world knows nothing about Saint Germain so I decided to give a brief explanation. The Enlightened and now Ascended Master Saint Germain is thought to have ascended like Jesus in the year 1684 AD somewhere in Europe and very likely in England where he was born as Francis Bacon, the illegitamate son of Queen Elizabeth I of England and who later served as the Lord Exchecheur of London. He was also known as the Compte De Saint Germain in France and England and as Prince Ragocy of Transylvania. Some people believe that before he became ascended that the legends of Vlad the Impaler of Transylvania who was the historic Count Dracula, and the miracle worker, Prince Ragocy of Transylvania became intertwined into the same legend to become the perverted as the present pulp science fiction story of Count Dracula that we see in movies since Bela Lugosi in the 1930's in the United States.
However, although Prince Ragocy of Transylvania, Francis Bacon of London, and the Compte De Saint Germain of France were likely all the same person no one has proof that I know of. In addition to this the Compte De Saint Germain frequented all the courts of Europe and especially that of Louis the 16th and Queen Marie Antonette of France. He spoke, it is said as if he were there at ancient battles thousands of years before and spoke intimately of knowing people from divergent cultures and spoke almost all languages fluently like a native born to the language and without any accent even dead languages and played like a virtuoso on the violyn. I have one of the books of music found by Manly P. Hall and published by his still existent Philosophical Research Society in Los Angeles? It was/is? at 3910 Los Feliz Boulevard Los Angeles, California in the early 1980's when I purchased it. This music is called "The Music of the Compte De Saint Germain". There is also a painting of the Comte. De Saint Germain by the artist Thomas in the Louvre in France. I would like to quote from "Notes on the music of ST. Germain" from inside the published music folio from the Philosophical research society there is no page number other than the fact that I purchased the 266th of 1000 copies on the previous page. begin quote
"The mysterious Comte de St.-Germain is frequently mentioned by memoir writers of the eighteenth century, usually with the highest expression of wonder and admiration. He travelled in elite circles being the confidant of kings, emperors, princes, statesmen, titled ladies, scientists, scholars, and artists. He was always recognized as an aristocrat and nobleman, lived in the best of style, and enjoyed unlimited credit in the banks of Europe. The actual circumstances of St. -Germain's origins are uncertain, and the details of his personal life are shrouded in the deepest obscurity. Perhaps the most comprehensive statement describing the Comte de St. -Germain is contained in a letter dated April 15, 1758, written by Voltaire to the Emporer Frederick of Prussia. "He is a man who never dies and knows everything."
continued quote: "This mysterious gentleman spoke many languages-- including Oriental dialects without an accent, was a brilliant chemist, and artist of rare talents, a diplomat of distinction, and a competent musician. E.M. Oetinger in his work "Graf ST-Germain, Leipzig, 1846 writes "Just as great and worthy of admiration was the musical genius of the Comte. He played almost all instruments, but above all the violin with such consummate mastery that one believed oneself to be listening to a second Maestro Tartini---his first instruction in music he claimed to have enjoyed about 700 years ago from a Benedictine monk, an abbot of Avellana, by the famous master Guido Arezzo, and as concerns church music, claimed to have been educated five centuries later under Palestrina."
quote continued:"According to Madame Blavatsky he was compared to Paganini by those who had heard both. It was also reported of St. -Germain that he sometimes played behind a screen producing the effect of half a dozen instruments sounding at once." end quote
This introduction to the Comte de Saint Germain's music was compiled by Manly P. Hall and I shared only about 1/4 of it. The music introduction says, "The Favorite Songs from the Opera Called the L'Incostanza Delusa to which is added Six Sonatas for Two Violins with a Bass For the Harpsicord on Violincello."
Happily, I just found my copy of the Comte De Saint Germain published by I. Cooper Oakley in 1912 in Milano by "ARS REGIA" CAsa Editrice Del Dott. G. Sulli-Rao. She also published "Traces of a Hidden Tradition in Masonry and Mediaeval Mysticism" which sold for 5 pounds sterling in England and "Mystical Traditions" also for 5 pounds and in french "Traditions Mystiques" traduction francaise for 4 pounds
It appears Cooper Oakley visited famous public as well as private libraries and collections of descendants of those who knew the Comte De Saint Germain to do factual research for her book.
As a part of the introduction from Annie Besant who was then President of the Theosophical Society begins the quote as follow begin quote from Forward---- The Great Occultist and Brother of the White Lodge, fragments of whose life are herein given was the greatest force behind the intellectual reforming movement which received its death blow in the outbreak of the French Revolution. Phoenix-like, it has re-arisen, and it re-appeared in the 19th century as the Theosophical Society, of which this great Brother is one of the recognized Leaders. Still living in the same body the perennial youth of which astonished the observers of the 18th century, He has fulfilled the prophecy made to Madame D'Adhemar that He would show Himself again a century after His farewell to her, and in the growing spritual movement whcih is seen around us on every side, He will be one of the acknowledged Chiefs. Profoundly interesting, therefore, must be every detail that can be gathered of His eighteenth century life, and much is bathered here. London 1911. Annie Besant President of the Theosophical Society.
Chapter 1 of the same book begins on page 11 at the bottom of the page is a quote from Madame Blavatsky "The Comte De St. Germain was certainly the greatest Oriental Adept Europe has seen during the last centuries. quoted from the Thosophical Glossary, H.P. Blavatsky.
Printed in foldout form is a copy of a letter from the Comte De St. Germain written November 22nd 1735 that is in the British Museum. Since it is in French longhand I find it difficult to read even though I am conversant in French, my friends tell me without an accent.
Beginning on page 12 begin quote "Among the strange mysterious beings, with which the eighteenth century was so richly dowered, no one has commanded more universal coment and attention thatn the mystic who was known by the name of the Comte De Saint Germain. A hero of romance; a charlatan; a swindler and an adventurer; rich and varied were the names that showered freely upon him. Hated by the many, loved and reverenced by the few, time has not yet lifted the veil which screened his true mission from vulgar speculators of the period. Then as now, the occultist was dubbed charlatan by the ignorant; only some men and women here and there realised the power of which he stood possessed. The friend and councilor of kings and princes, an enemy to ministers who were skilled in deception, he brought his great knowledge to help the west, to stave off in some small measure the storm clouds that were gathering so thickly around some nations. Alas! his words of warning fell on deafened ears, and his advice went all unheaded.
Looking back from this distance of time it will be of interest to many students of mysticism to trace the life, so far as it may yet be told, of this great Occultist. Sketches are to be found here and there from various writers, mostly antagonistic, but no coherent detailed account of his life has yet appeared. This is very largely owing to the fact that the most interesting and important work, done by M. De St. Germain, lies buried in the secret archives of many princely and noble families. With this fact we have become acquainted duing the careful investigations which we have been making on the subject. Where the archives are situated we have also learned, but we have not yet in all cases received permission to make the necessary researches.end quote
Later on page 20 we find Cooper-Oakley believing from research that the Comte de Saint Germain is actually Franz-Leopol, Prince Ragoczy, of Transylvania. She later quotes on the bottom of page 20 and 21 from Prince Karl of Hesse Memoires de Mon Temps P. 133 Copenhagen, 1861. Writing of Monsiour de St. Germain: "Some curiosity may be felt as to his history;I will trace it with the utmost truthfulness, according to his own words, adding any necessary explanations. He told me that he was 88 years old when he came here, and that he was the son of the Prince Ragoczy of Transylvania by his first wife, a Tekeli. He was placed when quite young, under the care of the last Duc de Medici (Gian Gastone), who made him sleep while still a child in his own room. When M. de St. Germain learned that his two brothers, sons of the Princess of Hesse-Wahnfried(Rheifels) had become subject to the Emperor Charles VI., and had received the titles and names of St. Karl and St. Elizabeth, he said to himself:'Very well, I will call myself Santus Germano, the Holy Brother.' I cannot in truth guarantee his birth, but that he was tremendously protected by the Duc de Medici I have learnt from another source." end quote. Some other information is available at www.alchemylab.com/count_saint_germain.htm --- I have no affiliation with this site but it looked interesting.
Also, I just found two other websites connected to an organization I had affiliation from my birth until age 21(from 1948 until 1969). They are www.saintgermainfoundation.org and saintgermainpress.com --- The first is connected to Shasta Springs located in between Dunsmuir and the city of Mt. Shasta in northern California, USA and the second is where you can locate publications mostly channeled by Mr. Ballard between 1930 and 1939 and Mrs. Ballard until the early 1970's. end of my introduction to Saint Germain and beginning of my Personal experiences with Saint Germain
My own personal knowledge of the Ascended Master Saint Germain was attained while I was a baby and child growing up. However, now as a man of 56 I see Jesus and Saint Germain as my spiritual fathers of this lifetime. I prefer Saint Germain in some respects because being psychicly gifted I find that every church has its own astral Jesus attached to that church. None of these Jesus' are the actual Jesus of Nazereth but are created by the beliefs of the ministers and the people attached to that church. Many people need this kind of security. However, I experience this as many false Jesus'. However, I know that as Jesus said, "In my father's house are many mansions." Because of this I also respect all churches to be what they are and to help those who can be helped in that way. Also, I have met a High Tibetan Lama who once told me that he knew of someone who had become completetly enlightened meditating on a dogs tooth because he believed it was one of the teeth of the Buddha. Because I have heard of thousands of peoples lives affected in this way through faith both Christian and Buddhist and others I deeply respect that, "The Lord moves in mysterious ways."
The first instance I know of the Comte de Saint Germain in America is an episode where he was at the signing of the Declaration of Independance. Many of the signers spoke of how they were afraid of dying of losing everything including their families when the Comte stood up and spoke. He said something like, "Sign this document even if you lose everything including your lives. The whole human race in the future will succeed because you have signed this document whether you all live through this or not." This was all paraphased of course. John Hancock was the most moved and ran up and signed boldly followed by all the others. When they looked for the Comte to thank him he had disapeared. It is doubtful if any of the signers knew the man to be the Comte de St. Germain.
Later he tried first with Louis the 16th and then later Napolean to create the United States of Europe as well but both men failed him in this. Both men let women turn their heads in an unguarded moment and they and France were temporarily lost. Finally, today the Comte's dream is fulfilled in the present European Union. I wonder what name the Comte de Saint Germain is using now?
In some ways I was very pleased in reading" the Da Vinci Code" and also seeing the movie "National Treasure" as both trace some of the history of the Masons and the Rosicrusians and the Knights Templar all of which the soul of Saint Germain is supposed to have founded throughout several of his recent lifetimes. However, it is generally accepted that he is still wearing the body of Francis Bacon which he raised in 1684. Though the movie, National Treasure, is likely all fictional, still it is based upon a lot of the ideas of the Masons, Knights Templar and many Rosicrucians etc.
The most interesting public place in regard to all this that I know of in the US is the Rosicrucian museum in San Jose, California. It has real egyptian mummies and all sorts of arcane and interesting stuff for the public to see. Though I haven't been there in at least 15 years I just found the websites for the museum and the rosicrucian organization in San Jose, California the museum is egyptianmuseum.org and the rosicrucian organization is at rosicrucian.org --- I have not afiliation with either but I have visited the museum several times in san jose, the last being about 15 years ago.
The story of Saint Germain's Ascension as I have heard it from an "I AM" interpretation goes like this. Saint Germain's primary teacher along with Jesus is sometimes called The Great Divine Director or Lord Maha Chohan or the Lord of the Chohans. The Chohans are Saint Germain, Morya El or El Morya to some, Dwal Khul and four others. I believe that Jesus is one of the seven Chohans. The Chohans are seven in number and are masters on earth of seven different qualities. There are seven different Arcangels to match these seven Chohans. The Chohans are representing mankind and help guide and protect mankind whereas the Arcangels protect souls coming into bodies and being born, while in bodies and while leaving bodies and transiting to heaven realms etc. They have many other jobs as well. However, this is the job I know the most about now from many many personal experiences in this life and thousands of others.
One of the Comte de St. Germain's last initiations was to sit on a battlefield while everyone was being killed and dying around him and to remain centered and prevent any harm to himself while not interfering with the battle in any way. This was one of his final tests before he ascended like Jesus never to die again.
Anyway, the story goes that one day The Great Divine Director appeared to the Comte De Saint Germain (Francis Bacon) and told him he had become completely enlightened. Saint Germain was completely amazed. The Great Divine Director said something like: "Saint Germain you will never die again!" Saint Germain said something like, "May I stay on earth to help the children of earth create a heaven on earth?" The Great Divine Director said, "Yes!" Obviously I am paraphrazing as I have no text before me. These are simply the stories about Saint Germain told to me in the "I AM" teachings as I grew up.
So Saint Germain is still alive walking around in a body(whenever he wants to) to help the children of earth create a heaven on earth now and in the future. My theory is that when earth becomes a heaven it will become a star in the sky for by then we will all become pure energy forms.
My personal history in regard to Saint Germain
As I was slowly waking up this morning I looked over at a picture of Saint Germain that has been in my family over 50 years. I had placed it over an oval mirror about 2 1/2 to 3 feet tall to remind me of the radiant form that Saint Germain appeared to me on Easter weekend 1973. My experience of this would be to say that he became me and remained me on that occasion. Though this might not make sense to you it was my real and personal experience. I am witnessing this to you to bless your lives with the darshan or (blessing) of this experience. As he wishes me to share it now I will begin with it even though I was probably imbued with his presence along with Jesus while I was still in the womb. In 1973 I was 25. The precious years from age 21 had been very eventful but also very difficult. My initiations into the powerful and precious esoteric world of Saint Germain and Jesus had been overwhelming to the point where I almost had not physically survived on numerous occasions.
I was going to sleep when a very powerful energy that terrified me much like when I was a boy came into my bedroom. At first I thought I couldn't overcome the energy with my own spritual strength. Suddenly, I snapped into a deeper awareness and a voice I trusted (probably an angel) said something like "Take the energy and make it your own". So I did that because I had had a lot of experience requalifying powerful energies even though it can be quite intimidating at times. Anyway, on this occasion at first I became power mad from the incredible rush of energy under my control. It was like being on a motorcycle full throttle straight up into the sky when the same voice said, "Turn this energy into the violet flame." I immediately saw the wisdom of this and requalified the energy into powerful violet purifying flame that filled my whole bedroom. (Violet purifying or consuming flame burns off bad karma). So I basked in this sacred purifying flame for what seemed to be an hour or more. It was the most wonderful feeling I have ever experienced while wearing my human body with my soul since I was born. I had experienced the violet flame before since I was a child but not so visibly and not so intense or for such a long time at one sitting.
At that time in 1973 I had a poster on my bedroom wall of the sun rising over a mountain so the sun and the peak of the mountain perfectly intersected. From that perfect intersection of mountaintop and sun a violet spark brighter than all the living violet sacred flames surrounding me and through me came toward me while getting brighter and brighter and bigger and bigger until it was over my chest as I was lying on my bed watching it. At this point I saw it was a living Saint Germain looking out at me from another dimension within an oval of violet light. It was such an overwhelmingly powerful experience that I fainted and lost consciousness. When I awoke I was aware that my mind and brain had been reprogrammed to be the identical consciousness of Saint Germain. I knew my life would be very different than it had been before. It was like when an electromagnet makes a nail magnetic when exposed to the electromagnetic field. I had been made a Saint Germain Electromagnet in this sense. My life has been very amazing since this experience.
To KNOW Saint Germain is to be ONE with Saint Germain

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