To Be or Not To Be

Often from the time we are little children in worldwide societies we are told to strive to become something. So often people I have met including my son was saying this kind of thing to me about a year or so ago, "Nothing I have done has made me feel like I have accomplished anything in my life yet." I remember feeling like that around college age myself and I have met many people at every stage in life who have said things like this to me. Luckily, my son has realized that just being himself  is enough and also it helped that he got his Bachelor of Science Degree with many honors so the combination made him move to another paradigm in his life. But, with the degree also came the end of his second marriage and this was a bitter pill for  him to swallow. I remember saying to him, "I know you want this degree but putting off your divorce so you can get the degree is really going to emotionally cost you at some point. And it has. But because he is sort of a genius anyway, he found a therapist who now says, "I have never had a patient who progressed as fast as you." To my son. And I have noticed that things that bothered him all his life like his mother leaving when he was 3 don't bother him so much now.

I had been trying to teach him all his life that the most important thing in life is just to BE. Self Acceptance is the key to enlightenment. If you are only trying to become something your whole life how can you just BE who you naturally are? And this lesson I was trying to teach my son for 37 years he finally is understanding at almost age 38.

However, to be completely honest I had to come very close to suicide myself for several years from ages 21 to 23 and beyond before I finally got BEING at age 26. I had moved with my wife and baby to Hilo, Hawaii where she had lived a year before she married me. Though moving there was a disaster for her because NOTHING was the same as a new mother, for me, it taught me how to really BE.

I realized while we lived there in Hilo that white people from snowy countries are all pretty neurotic and come from a long line of people like this. All the people who live in snow country had to be extremely industrious to survive. However, that wasn't true in more tropical climates. So, I began to think about this because I was in a tropical climate in Hawaii. And I thought about what people had to do here to survive. First, because it is warm and hot a lot you can't think so much unless you want to have heat stroke(if you live in Hawaii year around without air conditioning). So, as a result people function more from their intuition and less from straight brain power because without air conditioning in the warmer months it will just give you a stroke in that climate. So, you learn to intuit what to do next instead of brain power. This also worked for me because I had had blunt trauma childhood epilepsy and had had to do this kind of thing to survive that too. So, even though I am very intelligent I learned (so I wouldn't die) to lead with my intuition and only engage my mind if I was trying to formulate a useful question. And I found when I asked a useful question my intuition would always give me the best answer. Because a mind has less dimensions than an intuition does. So, the mind is more like a mapping device and the intuition is sort of like what actually happens in all times and spaces. This is my experience. But the really useful thing I learned to do was to experience the universe intuitively and then to allow this experience to touch my mind. Then I found my mind could formulate amazing questions in somewhat the same way that Einstein soul traveled down a beam of light at the speed of light and from this real experience came up with the formula E=MC2. Then he proved mathematically the formula. But if he hadn't first really traveled at the speed of light by soul traveling what he did wouldn't have been possible.

So, I think to view one's intuitive-mind interface or heart mind interface as a real time or all time experience of the real universe or universes might be the most useful point of view when we design vehicles to travel time and space. Because in the end if you experience yourself being there in any time or space to a greater or lesser degree you are actually being there.

How I have come to view this scientifically is that atoms appear to be sensitive to human consciousness. So, when we experience Being anywhere or anywhen in  time and space we actually are there as much as we experience being there. However, I have always mitigated his to some degree because I believe that God gave me a body here on earth because he wants me to take care of it for him. So, this is why I don't just leave for parts unknown and never come back. I tried to do that already at age 20 and Angels brought me back to my body and said, "NO. You aren't allowed to do that. You have promised God to do a specific work here and you won't be allowed to leave. However, in order to make it possible for you to survive your 20s your body will only be a reference point or an anchor point, so you will be free to travel the universe as long as you also maintain your body here." So, I realized that what the angel said was true. I no longer was a prisoner in my body but could travel all over the universe. My 20s were tough but bearable because of the gifts God gave me through his angels.

By the time I was in my 30s life was fun again because I was married and raising my children and we were living a Mt. Shasta Wilderness experience and I was building my own house. So, God was right and life got really Good during my 30s. And because it got so good I was able to bear all the rest until I almost died when I was 50. Then after that every day has been Grace because God has Graced me with an Amazing life! Thank you God!

Though it is fun being anywhere anywhen I really love being Everywhere and Everywhen the most!

So, for me I went from "To BE OR NOT TO BE" in my twenties to "I want to be with you everywhere God!"