This has been possible the most physically intense week of my life. I've felt very much like a man thrown overboard and I have been physically swimming for my life ever since. I have likely had to use all my engineering skills and intuitive skills to the highest level of efficiency 24 hours a day just to be sure I could stay alive another moment.
My father's family are of pioneer stock and always good problem solvers and tend to look at things from a love of nature but also of how to engineer the best life possible for ourselves, our families and our children as long as possible. I don't think we are alone multi-generationally in this around the world. My father's family came over from Switzerland to Germany to England and on a boat similar in some ways to the Mayflower and sailed up the Philadelphia River and harbor from the sea and settled near there at first around 1725 I believe.
Most people who did this eventually died in the first or 2nd generation but our family has always prospered first as farmers who spread eventually west to Kansas and then my Grandad left Kansas and found he liked the west coast and finally bought a house in Lake Forest Park, (Seattle Area) (where I spent the first 4 years of my life on his 2 1/2 acres of Cherry trees, Apple Trees, Boysenberries and raspberries.) I loved picking the raspberries the best because it seems like they had less thorns for me at age 3.
My first thought, (like when I had whooping cough at 2, blunt trauma childhood epilepsy at 10 until age 15 was something like: "God? Why are you trying to kill me? Don't you love me?"
This made age 10 to 15 pretty extreme for me.
I think during those first two episodes I had to become infinitely practical and basically knew if I didn't stay calm and focused 24 hours a day like my life depended upon it I was likely going to die(whether God exists or not). This was my thought from ages 10 to 15 and terrified out of my mind of what I was experiencing in regard to childhood epilepsy(blunt trauma).
One of my spiritual teachers once told me the following what I would call "Parable" or "Koan"
Before I give it to you I would like to give you my response to what he said to me.
My response was: "Well. I'll believe it when I see it."
His answer back was: "If you gave me any other response you would not be my student".
Here is what he said:
If you live to 100 you will see 500
IF you live to 500 you will see 1000
If you live to 5000 you will see 10,000
The above implication I believe for all of us has to be:
"There is no real limit to how long a human being can live".
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