YOU CAN SEE THE GREAT PAIN IN MY SMILE: APRIL 9TH 2015

WHEN I

TOOK THIS SELFIE I HAD BEEN RELEASED FROM THE HOSPITAL THE DAY BEFORE.

MY WIFE HAD GOTTEN HYSTERICAL THE NIGHT BEFORE WHEN WE CHECKED OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AND INTO A NICE HOTEL IN MT. SHASTA. I'M SITTING IN MY WIFE'S 2008 LEXUS THAT HAD BEEN HER FATHER'S BEFORE HE LEFT IT TO HER. IT IS ONE REASON SHE STILL DRIVES THIS CAR AND DOESN'T JUST LEASE A NEW ONE EACH YEAR NOW. HE ONLY DROVE THIS CAR 300 MILES BEFORE HE PASSED ON AT 90. 

HE HAD PROMISED HIS OTHER 3 YEAR OLD CAR TO ONE OF HIS 8 GIRLFRIENDS WHEN HE PASSED ON. SO, TO HONOR THIS AGREEMENT HE GAVE HER HIS CAR AND HAD JUST PAID $50,000 CASH FOR THIS ONE. 

I GREATLY MISS MY WIFE'S FATHER. HE WAS OF A GENERATION LIKE MY DAD AND GRANDAD THAT I GREATLY MISS. I TOTALLY EXPERIENCE THEM ALL TO BE: "THE GREATEST GENERATION, MUCH GREATER SO FAR THAN ANY GENERATION INCLUING MY OWN SOCIAL REVOLUTION GENERATION.

BECAUSE THEY DIED THE MOST. THE LOST THEIR FAMILIES THE MOST. THEY SACRIFICED EVERYTHING THAT WE COULD LIVE THE GOOD LIFE NOW.

EVEN HER FATHER JOHN WAS A NAVAL LIETENANT SEABEE THAT HELPED BUILD MANY AIRPORTS INCLUIDING THE MAIN ONE ON ICELAND, TINIAN AND SEVERAL OTHER ISLANDS. ALSO, THE ENOLA GAY LANDED ON TINIAN LIKELY BOTH BEFORE AND AFTER IT NUKED JAPAN.

SO, TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT THIS IS WHAT I LOOKED LIKE WHEN I TRIED TO SMILE WHILE WAITING FOR MY WIFE TO DRIVE ME HOME FINALLY BACK TO THE SAN FRANCISCO HOME WHERE OUR HOME IS PAID FOR.

I WAS OUT OF THE HOSPITAL AND THE WORST WAS OVER?

WE'LL SEE. I DIDN'T THINK PASSING OUT COMING UP INTERSTATE 5 AND WAKING UP WITH MY HEAD ON MY CHEST 6 INCHES A WAY FROM COLLIDING WITH A SEMI TRUCK WAS FUN AT ALL, NOR WAITING FOR 6 HOURS FOR SOMEONE TO PICK ME UP WHILE I DIED OF THE HEAT THAT DAY WITH NO AIR CONDITIONING AND ONLY WATER TO DRINK TO HYDRATE FOR 6 HOURS AND THAT'S ALL.

BUT AS YOU CAN SEE GOD ALWAYS COMES THROUGH FOR ME AND PROTECTS ME AND FUNDS ME. IT'S GOOD TO ALWAYS BE ON THE WINNING SIDE.