Learning to become a survivor is learning about yourself and what you want and need to be able to survive

 Many people are selfish enough to be natural survivors but this wasn't me. Unless I had a reason to do something I found I just wouldn't do anything at all and this was moving me towards extinction in my early 20s. So, I didn't really care if I survived or not.

Once I realized this problem fully I realized that unless life made more sense than it did at the time I was likely going to die by age 25.

Life without meaning for me meant I wouldn't be alive at all.

Some people you can say to: "Jump" and they will ask "How High?"

If someone said "Jump" to me my internal response likely would be: "F--- Y--"

So, people ordering me around was meaningless unless I found it useful somehow.

If it wasn't useful in some logical reasonable way I just wasn't going to do it at all.

So, in order to stay alive whatever I did had to have some real and lasting meaning.

For me, this meaning came from becoming a father and getting married.

This I could understand.

This made sense to me.

Just taking care of myself made no sense to me at all.

But, taking care of other people that I loved made all the sense in the world.

So, a reason to stay alive was born in me which has brought me to now when I'm 73 years old.

By God's Grace