Stream of consciousness

 (Or the opposite of Writer's block)

is how I prefer to write.

First of all, if you have studied the human mind or spirituality and spirituality I would likely define as finding a general oneness with all life in the Universe. Some would call this "finding God" but I think that not everyone does it in this way. Some worship nature or the universe or principles that they can live by when they delve deeply into their spiritual natures.

I was forced by life to face death first at age 2 with whooping cough and then angels came and rescued me as I was dying. So, this is how I became more spiritual and less angry in life.

However, anger I have found is extremely useful as long as you don't get violent with your anger. 

In other words, anger is a natural reaction to being harmed in various ways growing up on earth. 

However, if you get a gun and shoot yourself or others, I think this is extremely counterproductive on many different levels.

So, I have dealt with anger a lot in my life. But, like I said if you are intelligent enough you can use this anger to survive better in life and not be a victim to life around you.

One of the ways to do this I have found is by seeing yourself as a son or daughter of God (if you believe in God). So, in this sense each of us is a Prince or a Princess of all God has created in the entire universe.

From this perspective being a victim or allowing yourself to be a victim is your own problem and no one else's.

What I mean by this is that if you really are a son or a daughter of God who created everything in the universe then allowing yourself to become a victim of anything or anyone is sort of ridiculous.

So, when you get old enough to see this, finding a way forward starts with your attitude towards all life around you. Anyone who tries to make you their victim or anything that makes you their victim is you letting them do this.

The point is: You have to stop letting them do this!

You have to see yourself as not a victim of anyone and change your behavior to not be anyone's victim. So, first it starts with changing the way you look at things.

You are a Son or a daughter of God.

Therefore you should not be a victim of anything or anyone.

Start by seeing things in this way and end your victimhood forever.

Be a captain of your own ship and a master of your own destiny because you are a son or a daughter of God.

The next time what someone says or does makes you want to kill yourself (or others), remember what I'm saying here.

You are a son or a daughter of God.

If you are a victim to anything or anyone then this is your problem not theirs.

Stand up and walk away from people victimizing you and create your own life and reality.

Walk away like Moses in the desert from people victimizing you and create your own new world and reality.

Don't be victimized by anyone ever again.

Because here is the real problem:

If you are suicidal you are also (potentially at least) homicidal too. If you have studied psychology like I have you see this quite clearly. In other words, someone so self destructive that they would kill themselves often can sometimes kill others too. We see this in many mass murderers around the world, for example, where they are trying to commit suicide but don't want to die alone.

So, if you are suicidal you are not only a danger to yourself you are a potential danger to all others in your life.

 So, Stop being a victim of yourself or others.

Be a Captain of your own ship and a Master of your own destiny as God intended for you!

By God's Grace