I could have been a professional musician and singer but I decided not to do this. Why?

 To me, music is sacred and mostly about singing to God in Church or in nature alone with God as this is what my mother and father taught me about Music by being around them.

So, when I thought about playing music in bars and other venues with people smoking and drinking this totally turned me off to the whole idea. Some of my friends that I used to jam playing music with eventually became life long professional musicians though as a result. So, in some ways I live vicariously through them as they are still musicians today mostly.

Music was a big part of my life until my father died in 1985. Then I found I couldn't play music without crying so I mostly stopped playing music because I couldn't deal with my emotions when I played or sang music. My father's passing in 1985 made me withdraw from playing and writing music a lot. It's likely why I began writing more about Arcane and Purple Delta 7 and others in my time lines then.

But until I was 37 and my father died I wrote songs all the time and this eventually converted into writing prose more like about Arcane in the past, present and future as well. I still like writing Haiku because it got me through my divorce in 1995 and after by reducing everything to a common denominator that I could make sense of.

By God's Grace

Here is some of what I wrote trying to survive my divorce in 1994 and after.

I'm sorry this is written on a blue background but this was from my first website that a friend in Canada helped me build around 1999. I was able to copy the software to dragonofcompassion.com the way it originally was online in 1999. This is only a section I selected from the poems page as I felt it was time to share this section:

begin a partial quote from:

http://dragonofcompassion.com/poems

"Einstein" "Imagination is more important than knowledge!"- Einstein This statement is true because knowledge and answers are the same Answers can only be important in one context or one continuum whereas imagination has more to do with asking questions Children should be taught how to formulate useful questions from their imaginations. The ability to formulate useful questions constantly creates answers in all contexts and continuums. However, the horror of paradoxes must be overcome if one is going to continually ask questions The universe is full of a seeming infinite amount of paradoxes and the ability to contain these paradoxes without going mad is necessary to embark on a life path of being a truth seeker no matter where the truth leads. Otherwise one can quickly reach complete confusion born of the seemingly infinite paradoxes one encounters.   Copyright 1999 Note: the following are: New January 8th and a product of having to be quiet for one week with flu. "There is nothing so bad that no good may come of it---." Descartes WISDOM wisdom come during fasting and sicknes Listen when you least expect it wisdom so precious it comes but once LIFE intolerable at times a drudge at others we live for moments of oneness with the Creator our one True Lover Hope Springs eternal If we die daily Peace The key to peace is kindness Prosperity Prosperity comes from giving Peace and kindness to others Prosperous soul Prosperous mind Prosperous body DESIRE Be very careful what you desire You may get it Travel is like a drug everything is new and strange and so are you Happiness Happiness is fleeting contentment is forever Modesty modesty has its place it helps one to survive hard times JOKES To laugh at ones own mistakes is the mark of a great soul to betlittle and laugh at another is the mark of an idiot Bravery to stay alive to old age is the bravest thing that one can do Listening Listen my child to your elders if you would be wise when you grow up Survival years ago I thought survival was burying food in a 50 gallon drum Now I know survival is fasting praying kindness and mercy Aloneness Being an only child aloneness was hard too many vacations-no kids Now I am a man Aloneness is still hard But now I am a new family Sadness Sadness is being human Joy is being alive Happiness is knowing God Heartache If you can live through it it brings wisdom and kindness If not, it brings death Quiet In the quiet I can hear myself think I can know myself, my world, my nature My sadness is how few experience the Quiet For Quiet is Healing! Wilderness Wilderness is my church The church of all creatures Why is the church of all creatures disapearing? Without their church all creatures will die! Ocean The Ocean of kindness of all Beings Gives hope to all who struggle