For example, from Fall of 1998 until May of 1999 Doctors thought I was going to die and told me they weren't sure if I would live or die during this time. So, this was very hard. Luckily, the angels had come to me that day in the fall as I had called my son to come pick me up in his car and take me to the hospital because I believed I was dying. So, as the Angels surrounded me they said in unison over and over again.
"You aren't going to die. Your Life will get better now". And after 9 months of passing out and almost dying over and over again this became true.
The thing is most people who had a heart virus like I had in California died then. In fact, I was the Only one I know of that year from 1998 to 1999 that actually survived a heart virus like mine. It is often caused by getting your teeth cleaned when you have about a 1 in 1000 chance of getting a heart virus like mine when a particle of food gets into your blood stream from the teeth cleaning process.
However, because I had had whooping cough as a child and because I had learned Tibetan Buddhist disconnection meditations I survived.
So, as I began to black out I knew if I panicked the way most people do I would die. So, I refused to panic as I passed out each time. So, mostly I would just lay down on the floor so I wouldn't be injured as I passed out wherever I was in our house then. And in a few minutes to an hour I would awake again and usually I would be alone going through this not really sure whether I would survive this or not. But, somehow I did.
So, finally in May of 1999 my heart specialist said, "Fred, you are very very lucky because most patients would have died because of what you have been through. By the process of elimination we realize now you had a heart virus that somehow you survived."
I was in shock and because I had promised God if I survived that I would start a blog to sing God's Praises I did in June of 1999. Then in fall of 1999 I took my mother and my older daughter then 10 to England and Scotland where her father and mother had grown up to be adults after both of them had been born in the U.S. one in Boston and one in Philadelphia and then had been forced by circumstance to return to Scotland because of family disasters there in the U.S.
So, those 9 months I think were the hardest long term. Then after that I got Lightning migraines which are not painful but when you see lightning bolts running through your retinas that don't go away and are not a nurse or medical doctor you might think you are dying because you don't know what they are which is what happened to me. So, each time I would see these "lightning" things in my eyes I believed I might die and actually this scared me more because of my ignorance at the time of what they were. I just tried not to talk about it much to my wife so I didn't scare her anymore than I already had by almost dying from fall of 1998 to May of 1999.
So, I guess what I'm saying to you is that you really have to be disciplined in not panicking in order to survive things like this. IF you panic all is lost and you could easily have a stroke or heart attack but if you find a way to stay calm and soldier on then you just might survive whatever you are going through at that time of your life.
By God's Grace
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