Though I began writing about Arcane (Saint Germain) in 1980 I didn't own a computer with text editing until 1987

It's hard to believe now that was 45 years ago about now that I wrote this by the way. This was when I discovered what I call a Legendary form of writing that suited me.

At the time I thought I was writing Therapeutic Science Fiction to heal myself of Childhood and Young Adult traumas so I could be a better Father and Husband and just a better person at that time. 

Often the traumas of our youth are difficult to fully overcome. I had had really great parents but everyone had been harmed in some ways who had lived through the Great Depression and World War II. It was sort of like everyone who had survived all that had some version of PTSD from those experiences. 

For me, I was trying to overcome whooping cough, blunt force trauma seizures from rock climbing with my father at age 8 or 9 in Chilao above Los Angeles in the Angeles Crest Forest and leaving my childhood religion (this was a big one) and my first divorce and then I was given custody of my son born in 1974 which for me was a very good thing which helped me keep my life together during this first divorce for both his sake and mine.

He is now 51 years old and live in Portland with his own Wife and 11 year old son by the way.

It wasn't until 1998 and 1999 as I prepared to die from a heart virus that I began to understand that a soul doesn't even live in time and space except when clothed with a physical body. 

This realization changed everything for me to where I realized I wasn't even writing Science Fiction but actually I was healing all my past, present and future lifetimes from the perspective of my immortal soul that doesn't even necessarily live in time and space except when clothed with a physical body to wear and to walk around in.

So, this changed everything for me.

Then I realized how important what I was writing was to people who would actually experience much of what I'm writing about in the future which was when I started my first website in June of 1999 when I had recovered from my heart virus and my heart specialist and other doctors told me I likely wasn't going to die after all like most people did with the type of heart virus I had. 

At the time I was the only person in California who had this type of Heart virus that I know actually survived it in 1998 and 1999.

So, I realized God had helped me in an amazing way in forcing me to retire or die  between fall of 1998 and may of 1999.

By God's Grace