So, I went out trying to get beyond the fog which almost seems eternal here since I returned from mt. Shasta and Portland, Oregon on the 7th. Today is the 15th with maybe an hour or two here and there of sunlight and that's mostly all.
So, today I wanted to go out but then it was about 5 Pm and I tried to go out to the sun anyway but I could see the sun in the distance but finally realized that the rush hour traffic was pretty bad and that I needed to give up my dream at least for today of seeing the sun and return home. I noticed my right foot was getting numb from holding it on the brake of my truck too. I wasn't driving my wife's car where I can set the brake and it stays called AVH I think and then I can touch the gas pedal and we are off to the races again.
So, the old 2011 Tundra is really great still for 4 wheel driving but our 2022 Car is really great for traffic because of all the automatic settings. I can even only touch one button in freeway traffic and let the car drive itself including automatic braking. Then after it stops by itself while driving itself all I have to do is to touch one button and we are moving once again.
I'm listening to myself realizing how spoiled I'm getting driving these new automatic driving and braking cars in cruise control and sometimes steering control too.
But, that's another story.
I think you can tell by the way I'm writing this that I'm in my late 70s and retired mostly.
I can sense that many of you might want the kinds of problems that I have instead of the ones you do have.One of our housekeepers originally from Detroit says "These are white people's problems". (even though he is white too and an ex Army Ranger when he was young and just got married and started having kids at a pretty young age.
He might be right about these being retired White people's problems too.
However, I miss all the fun and the kinds of problems of my 30s about now that I'm 77 and a grandfather many times over.
However, I found the worst time to be alive was likely 18 to 25 but by 26 my life got better because it made a lot more sense because I was married at 26 and a new father also.
Though I was dating a lot between 15 and 25 I was actually relieved to get married the first time and to have a son. Life made much more sense to me after that.
I found just dating girl after girl sort of frivolous in some ways and though I might help them solve some of their problems they weren't really helping me solve my own problems until I got married the first time.
But, since my parents were ministers and always counseling members of the church I learned from them how to help people solve their problems so they might stay alive and have a life worthwhile after all.
So, I always was helping my girlfriends and they helped keep me alive until I got married and started having children and then life actually started to make sense to me. Childhood made sense and being married having children made sense but just dating girls from my age 15 to 25 seemed sort of unnatural in some ways even though it resulted in great kids eventually after I got married and they all did well too.
By God's Grace
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