The biggest problem for me is boundaries. What I mean by this is often you can see everything past, present and future. But, what do you do with that information? If you tell most people they won't believe you anyway, except for people who have already witnessed you being right. This last year has been very hard for me because of my burst appendix. What was strange for me about this is somehow I knew this happening to me would increase my lifespan. Though this is paradoxical I also understand it because the same thing happened when I almost died of a Heart virus in 1998 and 1999. I was forced to retire and because of it it lengthened my life instead of dying at 50 or 55 or 60 I'm still alive at 68 and still going strong. The same is true of my burst appendix I know now. Each of these illnesses just lengthened my lifespan more and more. Why? Because it forced me to adapt in such a way that I didn't die.
One of the biggest problems people face is often they wait too long to retire and it kills them. Or they work until they die because they are workaholics. or they cannot afford to retire so they never do. The list goes on and on.
However, I see the universe in a completely different way. I see my life has always been only by the grace of God. So, I'm used to falling off of cliffs metaphorically and being rescued by God in one way or another. So, there are no illusions for me. I either live by the grace of God Always or not at all.
So, accepting death I die to God daily and this is why I'm still alive at 68.
By God's Grace
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