When I was little I always had this feeling that there was this extremely powerful presence within me. At the time I saw it as an enormous Tiger that wanted to eat me. So during my childhood I was running inside from it because I didn't want to die! I think this fear was one of the things that gave me childhood epilepsy. (That and a concussion!) So from ages 10 to 15 I was fighting for my life in various ways. But it was mostly invisible to everyone else except my parents, as they made me keep my childhood epilepsy secret from all friends and relatives most of my life until they passed away. We could get away with this because all seizure were after I went to sleep.
So, what I'm trying to get at here was that this fear wasn't imaginary just in my mind. It was something real and I was desperately trying to not die! Finally at age 15 the seizures stopped because my cranial cavity had grown and the pressure on my brain from the concussion ended. My son who becomes an RN BS this year told me this.
So, from this series of experiences I learned to control my feelings and inner thoughts so I could stay alive. This made me very supernaturally powerful because of being forced to grow up emotionally in this way in order to stay alive. So, I found myself emotionally and intuitively stronger than anyone my age by age 15. So it didn't matter how intelligent someone was, they were no match for me in emotional and intuitive intelligence ever.
I don't know if you have ever been in the position where no one can equal you your own age. It is pretty scary because the air is pretty rarified. So I began to search for teachers so I didn't hurt anyone by accident supernaturally with what God had done to me.
My first teacher had blessed me when I was 2 months old in the little city of Mt. Shasta around 1950 and her name was Mrs. Ballard and she was my parents spiritual teacher. So, since she was the head of a 10,000 plus person religion worldwide and since my parents were in charge of the Los Angeles Church from 1954 to 1960 when my mother's father died and she had a temporary nervous breakdown from her father's death and likely worry about my childhood epilepsy because it was getting worse every year until I was 14 or 15 in 1963 when it ended.
After I left my parents religion at age 21 I began searching for other teachers because I still knew I had to somehow get my supernatural house in order as I wanted to only do good and no one that I knew then understood how to teach me that I had met.
I knew I needed custom instruction because I was not like anyone else I had ever met. I read a book called "Autobiography of a Yogi" and would buy 10 or more paperback copies of it and give it to hitchikers I would pick up in my 1966 VW Bug. It was fairly safe to pick up people before I would say about 1973 or 4. Some places it was safe to pick up hitchikers until the late 1970s. But I stopped picking up hitchikers when my son was born in 1974 because I didn't feel it was safe with him in the car to pick up hitchikers. Now I wouldn't recommend anyone hitch hike and everyone knows why now. But then it was a much more innocent and safe world than it is now generally speaking.
So, here and there I would meet someone who knew enough about what I needed to learn. I used to go visit Kathryn Kulman
http://kathrynkuhlman.com/
along with 10,000 or more at the Shrine auditorium. In my early twenties my then girlfriend and I would go often. But my experience was as a scientist and as an intuitive watching how the Christ energies were invoked and mobilized to actually heal people. I found the whole experience very scientifically informative and it made one intoxicated with being around so many angels as hundreds and sometimes thousands of healings took place. The spiritual energy in the room was really amazing. I will never forget those experiences. I have never seen anything quite like them either before or since then. Another very positive outlook I have seen on TV is Joel Osteen at:
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