The strangeness of past lives

I have invoked as a child and young man prayers so that my past life memories wont destroy my present life like happens to many people. It is important to block some or all experiences because think of all the horrific lives and horrific ways people died up until around 1900 worldwide. Many places on earth it is still horrific to live. What if you are a child now who was killed in the last few years in Syria or what if you are a child who died horribly as someone tortured to death in Iraq since 2003?

I know from personal experiences that all those killed by Americans in Iraq would (by karma) be sent to be born in the U.S. And Likewise, those killed by Iraqis would likely be reborn in Iraq. I have experienced this myself in this lifetime because I was a child in Japan around age 12 when I died in Nagasaki from the Nuclear blast there and as a result I was born 3 years later in Seattle to American parents.

But, for most of my life I believed in linear reincarnation which means to me that it is one lifetime at a time progressing forward through time. However, since I almost died in 1998 and 1999 from a heart virus I learned  that this just isn't true. Starting then I now have to cope with the fact that my soul often lives in more than one body on earth at a time. This has been hard to learn to cope with ever since even though it is true.

So, even though I was born in Tibet (Nepal now) and visited the area where I grew up in in the Himalayas in 1986 that I was born in in the 1840s or 1850s and even though I lived in that lifetime until around 1930 in India and Nepal and Tibet I realize now there is (AT LEAST) one other lifetime I lived as a soul too here on earth.

How I found this out was pretty traumatic for me and I'm still trying to deal with it all because this new lifetime I had no idea about until almost dying from a burst appendix in Mt. Shasta. The way I found out about it was by meeting my doctor who removed my burst appendix who was a relative by marriage to me in Russia in the Royal Family at that time. Because she looks almost exactly as she looked then in 1912 to 1917 era in Russia I recognized her and she experienced something too but I don't think she is intuitive in the way I am to recognize what it really was that was going on there.

So, our karma sets up these things. For example, in that lifetime married to a brother individual in Russia I was very fond of her even though I likely was 10 years younger than her and she was married. So then, at first I thought that I was her husband then. But, my mother the queen mother came to me across time and said to me, "NO! you were Alexei!" My Mother from that lifetime came all in white and this really blew my mind at the time because I didn't know what to do with this information at all. After all, I had just almost died from a burst appendix and all this came about mostly while I was still in the hospital from the night before Easter 2015 until the following Wednesday or Thursday there in Mercy Hospital in Mt. Shasta.

I never discussed this with my lady surgeon because it was never appropriate and it might never be. However, one of the things beyond her picture that she now looks almost exactly alike once again was the fact that she wanted to be a surgeon then too. After we all died (including her husband) she retired to Nice, France and raised her children there once the Soviets had taken over Russia in 1917.

This is what she looked like then and now days she is a surgeon in another lifetime as an American and looks pretty much like this once again.

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   I realized we are at the 100 year anniversary of my death and the death of most of my relatives then. I have had a very very distant relationship to Russia in this lifetime. However, my upsetedness at Russia in my lifetime makes much more sense now after living through the Cold War. Now, I see if you were killed by your countrymen like I was you might have felt the same thing as a soul.

   
   

   In this present lifetime I was asked to leave my childhood religion and almost committed suicide just because of this. So, dying or almost dying appears to be the nature of my karmic stream as well.

   
   

   So, this is why I see my present life as a life totally lived by the Grace of God. When many others in my place would have died again and again God has seen fit to raise me like Lazarus from the dead over and over again.

   
   

   By God's Grace