My enlightenment path actually become thousands of times more powerful and useful to me and everyone else when:

I got beyond my suicidal feelings especially between 18 and 25.

I was handsome and like many men who are tall and handsome narcissistic which is like wearing a ship anchor around your neck in some ways.

It isn't until you start to care about others more that this narcissistic Anchor dissolves and you become someone who is living not really for yourself but for others.

At least this was my path.

However, when I traced my lineage back to Switzerland to 1580 on my father side all the men tended to own their own businesses (like myself, my father and my uncle and my cousin) and have about 10 kids each until around 1900 when my father's father had 5 children. Then my cousin and I each had 3 biological children.

So, all these men were family men starting businesses just like my relatives did to feed our families and to travel the world and take care of our families and educate our families by all going to college.

So, enlightenment really didn't begin for me until my live in Girlfriend got pregnant and we got married so I could work to support my son. Then I began to start businesses to feed everyone, raise my children and to travel the world.

Until I got beyond narcissism I couldn't really move forward.

Yes. This is just my path and it might not be yours exactly. 

But, until others are more important to you than you are you might not make it here on earth.

This is my experience so far.

By God's Grace