Intuitive Science Part 2

Intuitive Science

I had to go through many really awful experiences in my life in order to come to where I did at age 32. My cousin (who is a very successful lawyer) said to me at a party in the last year, "How did you survive all those years being a victim?" Since I knew he was serious and couldn't fathom my life I said, "I manipulated every situation to my advantage at every point. I never saw myself as a victim." He gave me the strangest of looks and then said, "If you never saw yourself as a victim then I guess you never were one." My father and his mother were brother and sister and very much alike and were both extremely tough people from living through the Great Depression and World War II. So, my cousin and I were the first people in that family capable of being diplomats because our Swiss German heritage of being American pioneers throughout America since about 1725 had made my father and his ancestors very tough and difficult and determined people. So, what my cousin actually heard me say between the lines is: "I'm a really tough SOB just like all our ancestors were, cousin. I survive anything just like they did. When people around us are dropping like flies we find a way to survive when others don't."

So, the difficulties in my life like Childhood Epilepsy and being raised in a very unusual religion that believed in becoming like Jesus through reincarnation and being raised a vegetarian in the 1950s etc. and then falling in love with someone in the church and then breaking up and being ostracized and excommunicated from that church at age 21 and being suicidal for several years because of this, he saw as a form of victimization. However, if I had ever looked at it in precisely this way I would have had to kill myself in earnest. Instead, I realized I could not do that to my parents and so I chose to live on for them initially, and then for my son, and then for all my children, and then I started to see all mankind as my children as I grew older. And this is why I write this blog in order to help the human race stay alive and not go extinct. In the process of all this at 17 I was much older and more mature than most people  that age because of almost having died from Epilepsy multiple times from ages 10 to 15. Also, I had also turned blue on multiple occasions trying to breathe through whooping cough and had almost died from that as well when I was 2 in 1950. So, all these things and more made me a very serious survivor. I think I cannot emphasize enough what a consummate survivor in all ways I have become to the point where it is important that people don't underestimate me at any point or time or how serious I am about all this. Yes. I'm older now, 63, but that doesn't change the usefulness of everything I have studied and learned along the way. However, when you study in your own unique directions because life allows you to you learn things that most people never do. And because of this it might be difficult for many to absorb the full power and import of what I'm actually trying to share.

What I'm actually sharing is how to survive anything like I did. It is a process of when you come near death from illness or loss of some kind of how you go on, of how you proceed. Because it is a totally different thing than most people do if they haven't faced death yet in their lives. For me, facing death means that for a period of at least 6 months you either thought you were going to die or you wished you were dead for one reason or another. Either of these experiences is a real Post traumatic Stress Disorder. Out of this experience you will either die, go crazy or you will emerge as someone quite different than you were before. And this is not necessarily something to be afraid of. By just accepting that life is either going to cause your death or you will be reborn as someone new in the same body can be very freeing, especially if you didn't like who you were before anyway. So, it can allow you and God and/or Life being the Architect of the new you. And in my own case designing my new self was one of the most amazing experiences of my whole life. Since I tend to be a very innovative and inventive kind of person, I invented a new self in myself probably about 100 times better and more efficient than the one that was raised by the people around me growing up. As a result I grew and prospered in all ways over time.

Some people call this self nuturing. I tend to call this: "Basic Survival in a human body on Earth".

Most people sort of limp through life with their head up their rear end and have all sorts of problems as a result of the upbringing (or lack of one) in their lives. But when you get serious about "Raising yourself into becoming the best person you can be" during your 20s, then your potential can become 100s or 1000s of times more than what you started out with. So, these near death experiences can be a blessing in disguise if you have the balls to make them that. So, how tough are you? What can you survive? It's entirely up to you in the end.