Making good choices for a Long and Useful Life

Though everyone of you potentially has this ability as well as I. Most of you might not use this ability because even for me it is terrifying to use in actuality.

I have always had the ability since I was about 9 or 10 that if I REALLY wanted something for God to manifest I could do it by praying really hard and if God agreed with me it WOULD manifest. However, whether you are a child or an adult "God as a genie" just like in the story of "Alladin" can be kind of scary. What I found during my life is that when I did this "EVERYTHING" in my life changed and not just what I wanted and I found this kind of terrifying and so decided fairly young to only make this kind of powerful prayer in an emergency because the changes were just too traumatic for everyday life.

So, the last time I did this was an emergency during my last divorce in my middle 40s. I didn't see how I was going to survive this divorce on any level and so I asked God to "Make me a custodian of wealth because I was finally ready for this charge". In other words I had grown up as an adept to the point where I thought being a custodian of wealth would be useful to everyone I knew and beyond. After making this prayer I went on with my life and noticed everything in my life started to get better after that but I didn't realized my prayer was manifesting until about 1 year later. After I realized that this prayer was manifesting I felt both awed by the power of God as well as feeling the weight of this responsibility upon my shoulders. But even with this I still wasn't able to get custody of my then 5 year old daughter but was able to get to see my daughter about 9 weeks a year from ages 7 to 14 and then from 16 to the present we have at the very least gone skiing for a few days every year and vacationed together many years including going with my new wife and daughter to Paris, France and to Nice and to Monte Carlo together including riding the TGV (High speed train 200 to 300 mph) from Paris to Nice. Every day I will ask God what he wants me to do next and I get the answers I need.

Oftentimes I wonder why I'm still alive after God almost killed me when I was 50. After me and the doctors thinking I might die for about 7 months and several months of periodically passing out from not being able to oxygenate my blood properly no matter how fast I breathed, I had to learn how to pass out without panicking because that causes death in a heart virus patient. So even though the doctors didn't know that I had a heart virus until I was well. God came to me and showed me I couldn't panic because the angels he sent let me know if I panicked I would die.

When this all began in Fall 1998 I woke up and couldn't feel my arms or lips because they were tingling. I could barely walk and went into the bathroom and noticed my lips looked sort of blue. So, I called my son to take me to the hospital. In the meantime as I sat on the couch waiting for my son to come get me in his car or to die (whichever came first) Angels surrounded me and so I thought they had come for me and that I was dying. However, instead they said over and over in unison, "You aren't going to die. Your life will get better now." They kept saying this over and over in an oval around me until all the cells in my body took it in and it became real for them. However, my human mind was having some difficulty not panicking like a normal human being often does in this kind of situation. So, even though one level of me knew all this was true, another level of me on a purely animalistic survival level was scared. After the angels finished preparing me for my future life, they seemed to withdraw (at least out of my visible view of them) although I still felt their presence around me for days and weeks and months after that. In fact, I now believe they have never left me alone since that moment in September 1998. Sometimes they are close than others but always they are fairly near to me since then.

While I was at Stanford Medical Hospital near Stanford University there were many many heart patients waiting for there operations one day there. I would say there were at least 5 or more on guerneys in this operation waiting room for heart patients. Many to most were pale because they weren't sure they would survive the day or week or year. Others like me knew that the procedures we were going to have weren't going to kill us but also knew we might die on  our own if we didn't find out what was wrong with us. As an intelligent person my whole life up until then I had held close to my heart and only discussed with the closest of friends (if then) all the things I write about at my blog here at:   http://intuitivefred888.blogspot.com/       or at:

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So, though I started writing much of what is at dragonofcompassion.com starting around 1980 with Arcane in "Memories" I had never shared any of this online or tried to publish any of it before. However, the day I saw myself and all these people struggling to stay alive I swore an oath to God that I would no longer be so stupid and prideful as to keep all the many blessings God had given me all during my life any longer just to myself. I kept my word and started my first website at Geocities then in 1999 when I first found out in May that I would live and likely a long time from my Heart Specialist.  Geocities was purchased by Yahoo and then stopped being a free site a few years ago so I bought a domain name called dragonofcompassion after "Arcane" on his planet New Deva who is also a Dragon of Compassion there about 1,000,000 years into the future before he came to earth for the first time in that lifetime in 1987. 

Also, around this time I realized as an adept that what I write is likely true and that I'm writing about real past lives from the past, present and future lived by myself and others. In the mid 1980s I received a Tibetan Buddhist initiation from Lama Ayang called Phowa in the Santa Cruz area. He told us that if the initiation took that we would begin to remember all the lives of all the Buddhas and the Bodhisattvas of the Ten Directions and the Three times as if they were our own. I felt sort of confused for the first few weeks after this initiation as I began to remember thousands of new lifetimes of very special Bodhisattvas from this planet and others. But realized that the initiation had indeed taken and I had become of one taste with all of them throughout all time and space and beyond. This was and is a very remarkable experience ongoing. So it is my belief that I write about real bodhisattvas lifetimes in my writing both here at this blog site as well as dragonofcompassion.com

How you choose to see all this is your choice. However, I'm writing this for you as a way of "witnessing the truth" for you that it may bless your lives ongoing.

There is one final thing that I thought might be useful to share. One day in the mid 1980s I experienced something that forever changed my life. My parents and other Gurus and teachers told me about an "Infinite Brotherhood and Sisterhood of Compassionate Beings that spans all time and space" when I was growing up. I always hoped what they all were talking about was real. I can vouch for the fact that it is.

In the early 1980s I was honored by becoming a full member of this group. It was probably one of the most terrifying and overwhelming of experiences of my life for about 24 to 36 hours to join a compassionate group of compassionate Saints from and beyond all religions in the universe of trillions of compassionate beings in the past, present and future. There is nothing I have ever experienced as powerful in a compassionate and wise way than this experience which has never ended. It became clear to me that when one demonstrates that one is a trusted adult lifeform and can be depended upon in all ways that one is included in this group of beings. When this happens fear ends. Though there may be little fears there are never again big fears because there is nothing really to fear after joining this Brotherhood and Sisterhood of Compassionate beings that spans all time and space.

So, I share this so that you may know that this exists as a goal to attain to no longer feel fear in any major way ever again. The point of all this is that to these beings time and space is never an obstacle for us to help each other or any beings we see that need our help in any way. Imagine the most spiritually benevolent group of  beings in the universe. It is a worthwhile goal to join them in kindness, compassion, wisdom and responsibility for all beings in the universe. Though this includes all compassionate beings within our Galaxy it also includes compassionate being from all galaxies. And once again neither time nor space is an obstacle to such beings anywhere when they are trying to help someone or some group in genuine need anywhere in the universe or space or time or dimension.