However, I always had girlfriends from the time I was 15 years old until my live in Girlfriend got pregnant when I was 25 and we got married when I was 26 9 month later. We are still friends to this day by the way even though we broke up in 1977 in Mt. Shasta. We had also lived in Hilo Hawaii, San Marcos, California and Rancho Bernardo and Encinitas while we were together from 1973 until 1977. Though we were and are good friends my first wife just wasn't cut out to be a mother full time because of her experiences growing up were difficult herself. Whereas I had had really good parents and a really stable growing up period in my life.So, basically my childhood was pretty good so when I got to be 18 to 21 the world seemed pretty difficult and maybe impossible to live in from ages 21 to 25 when I met my first wife. But, like I said I was always handsome and tall and always had a girlfriend from age 15 to the time I met my first wife.
I married my 2nd wife who had 2 children from her first marriage and she had gotten her final divorce in 1978 like me. I had been given custody of my son so I had been a single father for a few years before 1980 when I married a second time. So, my 2nd marriage was mostly about being parents and raising kids and running businesses together (Even though we were both on the same spiritual path that helped a lot too).
However, then my father died and this really messed me up a lot and I started to blame my 2nd wife for my father's death even though that was all wrong at the time too. She hadn't learned not to speak ill of the dead yet and this caused me a lot of anger because I loved and revered my father. No man is perfect but my father was sort of like a spiritual John Wayne from the movies. People either loved my father or they hated him because he was pretty intense and extremely intelligent in the ways men were who came of age during the Great Depression and World wAr II. My father was born in 1916 and passed away in 1985.
Then my 2nd wife and I stayed together for 14 years which is likely 7 years longer than we should have mostly because of our children. We had her two from her first marriage and my son from my first marriage and then we had a daughter who is in her middle 30s now and has a new baby and is married.
But, in 1994 we broke up because it couldn't work any longer us being together. Unfortunately we had already burned our bridges together at least 7 years before which was likely the most awful 7 years in my life so far. So, sometimes loyalty to your children just isn't enough to save a marriage that needs to end and needed to end at least 7 years before it did.
Then in 1995 remarried someone that I had prayed for to come into my life. God came through and she had prayed for someone like me to come into her life too.
What we share is that we both live with the Angels. She reminds me of a queen or princess and I remind myself of being like a Knight protector to her. Since I'm 6 foot 5 inches tall just standing there while not smiling is enough of a deterrent to anyone for them to leave her and me alone. So, I have always been a person who protects people partly because of my size and deameanor and partly because of my relationship with the Archangels, especially Archangel Michael who has guarded me throughout my life and come to me to make sure I survived everything because it seems important to him and God that I stay alive as long as possible to help mankind in the ways that God allows me to.
By God's Grace
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