If you are a man like me

 And you are anywhere over 50 or 60 years old likely your mother has passed away like mine did at almost age 90 in 2008. She was born in 1919. I was feeling really bad after I turned off the TV and nothing could cheer me up. Finally I realized what was bothering me. It was that my own mother wasn't here like she was from 1950 to 2008 in my life and I missed her a lot. But, it sort of snuck up out of my subconscious mind and was biting me all night. So, if you are a man like me and used to being somewhat stoic so you can survive your life and you felt it tonight too then maybe it's because your mother is gone also and you miss her whether you will allow yourself to feel this or not.

Now I know what it was (this awful feeling) I'm okay now. It's one of the reasons I like writing because it can be very therapeutic and healing and it's one of the reasons I'm still alive and relatively healthy now at 76.