For a lot of men this wouldn't work at all. However, I had always wanted to be a father. I wasn't thrilled with the idea of being a husband but I always liked the idea of being a father. Why?
Because I wasn't really interested in staying alive just for myself. I was never selfish in that way like many people I met along the way. So, having my son at age 26 actually saved my life because I'm also a natural physical risk taker.
I was a risk taker because whooping cough and then a concussion at age 9 and night time seizures convinced me that I was already dead.
So, the only way I could feel like i was alive at all was to take physical risks so i could pull out of my traumas of almost dying so many times between age 2 and 15 years of age when my night time seizures from the Concussion stopped because my cranium grew and released the pressure on my brain.
So, being a father gave me an excuse to stop Rock Climbing up faces of rocks everywhere. Then a friend of mine died at Castle Crags free climbing and I realized just how important it was to get married and to have my son.
Then in the summer of 1977 my first wife and I broke up and I was given full custody of our son and raised him after that.
and Being a father worked for me in that I could do safer things and start businesses to support my son and even my 2nd marriage was a lot about finding a potential mother for my son which both did and didn't work out long term (especially when my father died at when I was 37).
So, I think the point I'm trying to make here is that becoming a father actually saved my life.
Without having my son at age 26 I don't think I would have survived to 30.
Whether this is true or not none of us will ever know.
It's just what I believe about my life.
By God's Grace
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