The private nurse hired by Silver's Father arrived. She came dressed as a nurse so there would be no mistake as to her important role between New York and Jackson Hole, Wyoming and his Dad's ranch. She said, "I'm going to give you a sedative because you have developed a type of Agoraphobia because of not having enough contact with your parents or ever going outside of this Penthouse."
Silver turned red and was embarrassed, especially because this was an especially young and beautiful nurse that he had chosen. Silver's father didn't tell Silver that this particular nurse did private pole and lap dances at people's homes sometimes to make extra money. Silver's father had used her services before as he had panic attacks sometimes too. Her fee was for Silver's father to keep her nursing license from being withdrawn from her extracurricular activities. Silver's father was very well connected as his father had been a world known financial Baron as had his father and his father before back to the 1880s. So, money this old buys many things and one of them is silence one way or the other.
She was auburn haired and about five feet six inches tall and very shapely and there was a sparkle in her eyes that most women didn't have. Silver realized he was frightened of this woman. She knew she could win him and he was completely emotionally outclassed. In other words this woman was as emotionally intelligent as he was intellectually brilliant in his own eccentric way. If she wanted to keep him there might be no way for him to say, "NO!". So Silver was scared but then he thought about his father's mind and it occurred to him that it might be a part of his father's plan. His father (at least at this point in his life did absolutely nothing by accident).
So, as he rode on the gurney(mobile stretcher with wheels) he pretended to be watching a video game unfolding. He pretended everything he saw was online or on TV. Since his oral medication had been timed for body mass and weight to be wearing off 10 minutes after he boarded the plane, at first he had a panic attack of not being in the only physical place he ever knew, his Penthouse womb. So, just like a baby being born he started to cry in emotional and physical distress. Then the nurse took off her hat and his favorite song came on and she began to dance for him just like he had fantasized a thousand times before. Then he could think of nothing but her. As he was watching her dance his father's private jet was taxiing down the runway.(Oh by the way Silver's grandfather's and grandmother's plane had crashed in water too deep to recover the black box. So no one ever knew what was wrong when the plane crashed into the Atlantic Ocean). They just assumed it was weather related or pilot error.
So, as they took off the nurse sat next to Silver and put her arm around him. Silver never felt happier or safer in his whole life. He didn't really care if the plane crashed because he had already died and gone to heaven.
As they landed in his father's private jet at Jackson Hole Airport he noticed that his father had landed the plane. He asked the nurse if his father had a pilot's license. She said, "I don't know but with money anything is possible. You know that don't you?"
Silver looked at the nurse. Lilu was her name. Her parents it seemed thought she was a Goddess incarnate. She had said it was a lot to carry growing up. But that she had learned now to carry her Goddess heritage into adulthood. Silver had no idea what was going on with Lilu. She said she had grown up in a commune that her parents had joined. And that later they had moved out of the commune when she was 10 and she missed all her friends from there and her parents had bought a Florist shop in New York City and then she went to a private school and that it had been a really hard adjustment to make.
The strange thing about Lilu was that both Lilu and Silver could relate to each other’s growing up periods. Her life growing up had been about as strange as his had in a different sort of way. It was like they both were two different people now each. Maybe more than two people each. Either way Lilu and Silver had bonded in a very strange and amazing way. Lilu saw Silver as brilliant yet naive and innocent. And Silver saw Lilu as worldly, intelligent, educated but still somehow precious. Somehow they had found what they both were looking for: (Home in each other) even though she was 24 and he was only 16. She was friend, lover, mother and sister and he was friend, little brother, lover and potential financial savior of Lilu
Now you may think all this is very twisted and maybe you would be right. But in the end this was their life and right now it was working for everyone.
OH! By the way Silver's Dad is called Rex and his mother's name is Pearl.
Rex smiled a very big smile as the plane landed at the Jackson Hole Airport in Wyoming. He loved this place any time of year. This was his home in his heart of hearts. So to bring his son finally to his home was healing a panoply of hurts in his heart. Rex could never undo what had happened to his parents but he could make amends to his son before Rex died of old age or before then.
Rex didn't know if getting Lilu for Silver was a good thing or a bad one. Both Lilu and Silver we very eccentric to say the least but there was something very precious and very amazing about both of them. There was a type of innocence that they both had that took ones breath away like watching Blanche Dubois in "A Streetcar Named Desire".
They were met at the airport by Rex's ranch's caretaker Slim. Slim drove up to Rex's private Jet in a Hummer.
Lilu's arm was still around Silver as she asked, "Can you handle walking out of the plane and riding in your Dad's Hummer to the Ranch without being sedated."
Silver looked up into her beautiful blue eyes and said, "I believe I'm dreaming anyway. So I'm probably fine. Nothing like this could actualy happen so this I must just be dreaming or watching this on TV or something."
Lilu looked as a nurse at Silver. He seemed to be in some type of shock but a kind that might do as a natural sedative. She hoped he wasn't moving towards some kind of temporary or permanent form of Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. So she smiled hopefully and walked over to his Dad, Rex.
Rex smiled up at her and said, "How's my son?" Lilu said, "I can't be completely sure but he just told me he thinks he's dreaming." Rex laughed and said, "One look at you with your arm around him and if I were him I'd think I was dreaming of a Goddess myself!" Lilu smiled a knowing smile and said, "I'm going to let him go with it then?"
Rex said, "By all means. He needs to experience the world if he's ever going to be able to inherit my millions or billions when I'm gone.
Lilu felt she might faint from all this money and what it brought with it. At that moment she finally got how over her head she was and how potentially vulnerable she was. But she was a real Goddess wasn't she? Her parents always told her she was since she was a baby.
Slim walked up the gangway stairs and said, "Hi Rex. Did you have a good trip Sir?"
Rex said, "Hi Slim. It's great to see you. Is everything okay at the ranch?" Slim said, "The Horses and the Buffalo are fine, Sir!"
Silver really thought he was dreaming now. Lilu took his arm. She was about Five foot 6 with beautiful Auburn colored hair and deep periwinkle blue eyes that looked almost violet in actual color. Silver thought that moment that Lilu really was a Goddess. He had never ever met anyone like her before or even dreamed about what she was really like. In this one case reality was more amazing than dreams. Lilu was a natural healer so just having her take his arm as he exited the plane was like being on the arm of a real Goddess.
The fresh air made his face feel like it was going to freeze but the smell of the clear fresh mountain air was something he would never forget the rest of his life. They say the original primal sense organ of humans is smell. He would remember this clear fresh mountain air smell until he died. He was free! Tears rolled down his face. He was free! He was home. He was with his Dad. And for the first time in his life his life actually made sense.
A few snow flakes touched the side of Silver's face. He felt this snow love his face before they started to stick to it.
Slim looked at the beautiful nurse and then Silver who was a handsome but strange dude at 16 and wondered why Rex had never brought his son or this lovely vision of a nurse to Jackson Hole before. It was a large ranch that bordered Teton National Park. Silver's Great Grandfather had come here with President Teddy Roosevelt around 1900 or so. So Silver's grandfather had spent a lot of time growing up, especially summers on this ranch. So it had now been in the family over 100 years. Unbelievable things had happened here, especially during the 1960s and 1970s. However, Rex hadn't been born until 1978 so he wasn't even 10 until 1988 and 20 in 1998.
Lilu felt safe somehow holding Silver's arm. His look at her was, "I'll protect you. Remember that." This though seemed to pass between then as she was feeling out of place and time. She realized what it was. This place reminded her of the country life that she so missed when her parents moved her into New York City. It was all coming back to her now. She couldn't help the tears that formed in her eyes. Somehow, she was home. Silver was home. They were all home. She sensed this and somehow she knew Silver and Rex knew it too.
There was a rustic old 100 year old bookcase that made one feel they were standing in the Lodge at Yellowstone national Park. It had the same huge fireplaces that they have there and was probably designed and built by the same people. On this bookcase were a row of green books. Lilu stepped forward and said, "My parents had these books. This one here is about where we are right now."
Rex almost choked on his drink. He said, "Those books have been there since they were first printed sometime during the 1930s. Sometimes I think I might have been named after the young man named Rex in the book "The Magic Presence". Lilu said to Rex, "Is this the ranch in this book?"
Rex stared at her a moment and then said, "You know. I don't really know. When I first read this book I didn't ever think of it as non-fiction. But if it really is non-fiction then I suppose this ranch might have been the ranch in the book.
Lilu was amazed. She said, "My father and mother believed in this book. They thought I was a reincarnation of one of the Goddesses in this book."
Rex had no idea of what to do with that. It was just too much for him to take in. Having his son here was enough alone for him. He quickly changed the subject.
Rex said, "Hey Silver. What do you think of the old family ranch." Silver felt very happy and angry at the same time. After all, he is 16 and full of hormones and youthful intensity. Rex saw him struggling and said, "Silver. I'm really sorry I didn't bring you here before." Silver said very difficultly, "I accept your apology, Dad. I want this to be a good experience for all of us."
Slim realized the intensity in the room could be cut with a knife and suddenly realized he had other work to do and so went outside leaving the group to fend for themselves.
The cook brought warm tea and hot chocolate and cookies for anyone who wanted it. For Silver this was the best tasting Hot Chocolate of his life. Everything seemed to taste better up here in the Tetons of Wyoming.
That night when it came to bedtime Silver snuck into Lilu's room. She seemed to be waiting for him. She said, "What took you so long?" Silver once again felt so outmatched by her. He said, "Do you like my money or to do you like me?" Lilu quickly said, "Both!" Silver looked right through her and smiled and said, "Good. Because I like you better than any girl or woman I've ever met."
Lilu thought she was sophisticated but this openness and honesty just made her cry because she was used to very closed people and very sophisticated people. Silver here was emotionally innocent and only 16. Even though he was brilliant and could easily out think her he wasn't worldly. She felt like she was with an innocent 12 year old boy in a 16 year olds body. A part of her wanted to be motherly. But another part just said, "What Fun!"
note: So even though Rex, Silver and Lilu are all sort of "happy happy joy joy" all of us beyond 30 years of age can see the serious pitfalls of what is happening on many different levels. There is a saying in life, "Absolute power corrupts absolutely". Rex has power over the wealth and whether Silver gets any of it at any time. Lilu has power over Silver but only if Rex allows it. Silver has power over Rex because Rex needs to feel like he is doing right by Silver(whether he really does or not) in order to stay alive and not self destruct in one of his panic attacks. And what kind of relationship does Rex actually have with Lilu anyway? And Lilu is a nurse but thinks she is a Goddess? What's up with that? Silver never has left his Penthouse since being born there? Which makes him how old experience wise and emotionally(somewhere between 6 and 12)? And what will this cause long term? And where is Pearl? What's her part in all this when she finds out her beloved son Silver isn't in New York from the Penthouse Cook? And did Rex hire Lilu to be Silver's nurse, mother, lover or all three or something else? The answer to all these questions and more is why I'm writing 2035 in the first place. And is Silver heading toward becoming more of a tech Guru since he is already a prodigy? I think so. He will be 35 in 2035. end note.
Rex loaded up the Hummer the next morning with Slim's help and they all headed out to see the horses and the Buffalo on their large ranch. The next day after that they went to Jackson Lake and took a fast boat across it and walked up the trail a ways up into the mountains from the lake.
The next day they drove to Dubois, Wyoming(The locals pronounce it Du Boys even though it is French and they pronounce it completely differently as DU BWA short A) to see some of the Bighorn sheep there. And the next they drove north towards Yellowstone National Park. Silver's virtual reality type of experience was growing by the day. He had never imagined the mountains could actually be as amazing as they were traveling with Rex and Lilu. He had waited all his life for someone, anyone to care about him like this and to get both his Dad and Lilu at the same time was really to much to ask for. When he thought about this he got scared because he knew he might not survive if he lost either of them now. He had always needed them and they were here at least for now and so was Wyoming.
Nurse and girlfriend now, Lilu, was concerned after they returned from Dubois, Wyoming to the ranch that Silver was getting a little strange. He seemed to be experiencing maybe some kind of withdrawals. But she wasn't sure what kind of withdrawals he was actually experiencing and whether it was an edible substance or just a psychological dependence that he was withdrawing from. And not being a licensed psychotherapist she thought she must do what she could to ascertain the problem as far as her specialty went.
She started in this way, "Are there some vitamins or other legal stimulants like Coffee or sugar that you are used to consuming every day or every few days?"
Silver eyed her suspiciously and said, "Why?"
Lilu said, "You have been in that Penthouse from the day you were born. There are likely going to be things you will have to deal with in a new environment like this one here in Wyoming."
Silver relaxed a little and felt she wasn't trying to control him. She was just concerned about his overall well being. He said, "You started to make me very nervous there for a moment. But let me think about what you're saying.... First of all I like pop tarts because of the sugar rush if I'm brainstorming about something. But just like coffee if you get to much you then crash from either. But, what I think you're getting at might be related to the brain vitamins and legal stimulants for the brain that I have been taking for some time now."
Lilu looked concerned and said, "Many of those though legal you shouldn't just stop taking suddenly. Give me a list of your brain vitamins and stimulants and I'll try to get some from Jackson nearby."
She called in Slim and asked him the name of the drugstore they used in the vicinity and he told them where to go. So she called up the local pharmacy and found they didn't have anything like that. So, at first she was worried until she finally found a health food store that carried these types of things. She wasn't able to get the same manufacturer names but she could at least approximate the dosages of brain vitamins and stimulants he had been taking.
Then, she got online and did some research into the affects of all the products individually and tried to find research into what the affects of all these things taken in conjunction and was somewhat disturbed by what she found. The research noted that Computer gaming and video gaming addicts that went into 24 hour symbiosis with online gaming or internet research were starting to change the ways in which they perceived reality. This concerned her because she wanted Silver to be her man. Yes. He was only 16 but grown up in a real sense much more than most 40 year olds she had met. He was kind of scary like Rex in that way. Some people just live in a fairy tale and you know that when you meet them. But Rex and Silver were kind of like meeting a grown lion or alpha wolf. You sort of felt like you might be eaten by Silver or Rex if you weren't careful. Both of them had this indefinable quality that is best described as
'ultimate survivors'. This didn't mean that they were physical fighters. Not at all. One just knew that somehow they would out think any group of people and if it came to it if anything happened they would always be some of the survivors of any difficult situation. Lilu always felt safe around Rex and Silver. And she felt safe around very few people.
Within a month Lilu and Silver were back living in the Penthouse together. She stayed his nurse, she became his friend, she became his lover, then was pregnant with his daughter, then they were married in Wyoming at Sunset in the springtime, then a month later Nada was born when Silver was 18. Rex approved of the whole thing. Heck, he had created the whole thing. Sometimes, he wondered just how much like his Dad he had become. After all, it was his Dad that told him to marry, Pearl when she became pregnant with his son. He had still been in college then. That was a lot to take because Rex had never seen himself getting married after what it had done to his mother marrying his Dad. He hadn't wanted to do to another person what his father had done to his mother. To run over her like a bulldozer until she became road kill stuck in the tank treads of his Dad's bulldozer.
However, luckily, (or not) Pearl had been road kill as a child. There really was nothing he could do to hurt her. He could love her and take care of her(which he always did). She was already like his Mom when he met her. (You know how boys are attracted to women like their mothers).
So the relationship between Silver and Lilu went something like this: Silver:"I will protect you from the crazy structure of the world." Lilu: "I will protect you Silver, from ever having to walk about New York City(even though I know you would love it if you just got over your childhood agoraphobia). Silver: "I will always love you and you will always protect me. As long as you love and protect me, I will finance you and financially protect you from the world." Lilu "I don't think you could make this work without me or someone like me. I will teach you about Gods and Goddesses and everything my parents taught me about Jesus and Saint Germain."
Was this a marriage made in heaven? Who knows? It worked for them. Like I read in a garage once, "If it ain't broke, don't fix it!"
In the end if life isn't about survival first, what is it about really?
Did Silver and Lilu have problems? Did Rex and Pearl have problems? Did the new babies Nada and Bob have problems? Of course. But they managed to make it all work somehow. And that was enough for them.
And when Silver started to get just too strange for everyone including Lilu she would simply give Rex a call and give Silver a look and reach for a sedative and then Silver would smile and take; and Rex would bring his limousine by and they would head for Rex's private jet. Silver implicitly trusted Rex and Lilu because they were the only trusted adults in his life. There were always online business associates and there were his wonderful children Nada and Bob, but his adult trust went out only to Rex and Lilu, and love and compassion for his mother, Pearl, who was usually somewhere lost in herself or visiting with Lilu, Nada and Bob. As time went on, Lilu, Nada and Bob started more and more to become the center of Pearl's life. Lilu, as a nurse was able to handle this quite well. And as Nada and Bob's mother this was okay too. After all, Pearl was their Grandma, and the only Grandparents still alive were Rex and Pearl, so they were a pretty valuable commodity.
This was Chapter 2 of "2035"
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