redoing time?

Emotionally I have always wanted to redo time. I realize now it was to please my parents. However, there was no way to make my parents happy because what they wanted for me was always completely unrealistic. In the end they were as idealist in some ways as I have been. It was a way to survive the Great Depression And World war II and everything that came after that.

So, if I'm realistic I realize my life was exactly the way it needed to be because what my parents wanted for me couldn't have happened anyway.

Besides, "Life is what happens while you are busy making other plans." 

You see, I learned I didn't do disappointment very well. IN fact, I barely survived it at all.

So, by my mid 20s I realized that I should become an ultimate opportunist and be ready for anything that happened in life in this way. This worked for me.

However, now my present wife is a planner. That's seems to work for her. She has 3 college degrees 2 in art and a Master's in Business. I tell her she should be a writer because she is a better writer than me. It's obvious to me.

However, she is a perfectionist and things that I leave alone after writing she could never do unless it was going to get an A while Getting her Master's in Business or something.

So, I write and she reads what I write and often thinks my ideas are good and I should edit more the way she wants them to be.

However, I'm writing what i write not her (even though I let her edit somethings sometimes).

:)