I am a natural caregiver. I have never really cared whether I lived or died mostly. So the problem with this is I became a physical risk taker fairly young in life. So, unless I had someone that I needed to take care of I might not stay alive either. So, in caring for others I would also be forced to care for myself or else I wouldn't be alive to care for them.
This is likely a more male point of view even though people of every gender often deal with this too.
So, if this is how you are then find someone to take care of that you love. It could be your mother or father or brother or a friend or a lover. It really doesn't matter as long as you commit to caring for this person in your life. This worked for me and if you are a caregiver personality your commitment to caring for another or several others will tend to keep you alive like it always has me especially after I had children and got married by age 25 and 26 in my life.
I was amazed how wonderful life could be (for me) in being a Dad and a Husband (I was always much less thrilled with being a husband than a Dad) because the jump from girlfriend boyfriend to Husband and Wife is a really big one especially when kids become involved. But, for me, being a Dad always has been the single most rewarding role in my life ever since.
So, now I look back on suicidal thoughts as being mostly the selfishness and confusion of youth.
However, this path of life only works if you are a natural caregiver like I tend to be of everyone around me now. If I take care of others I have to also take care of myself so the people I take care of are okay.
By God's Grace
No comments:
Post a Comment