By Learning to survive living in your own body is no small thing by the way. Most people tend to be terrified of themselves which doesn't make life very easy for them.
Even I was terrified of my own maleness and how I was sort of like Wolf in some ways. When I read Steppenwolf by Herman Hesse it so upset me I couldn't even finish the book because of the wild wolf like being inside of me.
However, over time I came to realize that human beings are just domesticated animals basically. People make up all sorts of religions to cover up what assholes most people are. Then they live in denial of all the people they harm to get ahead in life.
I wanted to have Ethics and morals that I could live by. I didn't want to end up dead young like many adults and children I met in the 1950s. I realized that you needed a workable moral code that you could actually live by. You needed a code that helped you and everyone around you.
However, in real time I realized that most people who were Christians in the 1950s and 1960s were very racist and to make it all worse people of other races even here in the U.S. were racists as Christians too, only black people would call us "The White Devils" and I'm not sure what Asians called us or other races besides this.
So, I wanted a moral code that I could live with that would not be racist and I wanted to feel good about my life and here is what I came up with here:
"I will be as kind as I can to everyone in my life but I will Always survive anything that comes too."
Thinking this way has served me well because only in real emergencies did I have to survive no matter what. And the thing I probably am the most proud of is that I managed to go through this whole lifetime without Killing anyone.
However, I have past life memories where people are haunted by all the people they killed in battles in wars the rest of their lives until they die.
I didn't want to experience that ever Again.
And by God's Grace I didn't have to in this lifetime.
By God's Grace
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