After almost dying January 4th in the emergency room throwing up brown and black water into a blue plastic bag as they wheeled me into a room for a Catscan past 20 to 30 people as I threw up was quite an experience.
Likely the nice Emergency room lady doctor giving me Versed allowed me not to die of shock and embarrassment while all this was happening. After all, I'm 77 years old at present so dying of shock from an unexpected event is a real potential problem for someone my age.
So, now when I think back upon what happened it is more like a movie I watched that I remember but it is like something that I didn't physically experience.
And this is a good thing to have my emotions disconnected from my mind in this way that day so I could still be alive today to write all this for you here.
So, eating only oatmeal and Mashed potatoes for weeks mostly since then along with Core power protein shakes and jello has allowed me to survive this far and I have so far lost around 20 pounds in the process in one month and my surgery for a robotic Hernia operation will likely take place in a month or two as well. And I actually likely am going to survive all this.
However, Tuesday the 6th of January my thought was to go home to sleep so maybe I could die in peace.
By God's Grace
We all ONLY live by God's Grace every single moment.
This is clearer and clearer each moment I live here on earth!
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