For example, from Fall of 1998 to May of 1999 I believed I likely was going to die but somehow I made it through until Doctors diagnosed what was wrong with my heart by the process of elimination. But then, I often believed during the next 8 years that I wasn't going to stay alive long either.
But then, in 2006 I was finally diagnosed with a hypothyroid condition which likely helped cause all the other problems I was having. Then I took Armour thyroid and since it is so similar to human thyroid I felt like in my mind at least I was 20 years old once again even though I was 58 at the time.
The next bought with Medical PTSD was in 2015 when my appendix burst (which kills a lot of people through sepsis when your appendix bursts. But, luckily I have a sort of 1800s typs of immune system so I survived that okay but the coughing from the operation for a month gave me a hernia that seriously reduced my quality of life Since 2015. In fact, I believed from around Easter of 2015 to about Christmas of 2015 that I was going to die from everything. Finally, I got beyond that into 2016.
Then January 4th 2026 I went into the emergency room with something like diverticulitis caused by a kink in my intestines caused by needing a Hernia surgery. HOwever, my cardiologist hadn't signed off on this surgery 4 years ago because he didn't think I could survive being put under (unconscious) which needs to happen for this type of Robotic Hernia Surgery with intubation of your lungs.
But January 4th 2026 when I was throwing up black and brown water and the lady doctor was wiping this from my chin in the emergency room I wasn't sure I could survive all this. She gave me an amnesiac so the emotions would affect me less so it was more looking back like watching a movie of something happening to someone else. Otherwise it is possible that this might have been too distressing for someone 78 to survive. So, when I look back at this experience now it is more like a movie I watched without as much emotional connection to the experience.
So, then they couldn't do an emergency operation on me because I was taking Eliquis a blood thinner or I would bleed to death on the operating table. So, while they were waiting while I didn't take eliquis or 4 days my bowels started working again and so the surgeon said I likely didn't need emergency surgery. then I told him about my Robotic Hernia Surgeon in Redding and we got permission from my cardiologist to have the surgery because my Cardiologist realized my heart had gotten stronger since 2022 by my defibrillator pacemaker and my taking Amiodarone to control Atrial Fibrillation which if you don't stop it with this like I did in the fall of 2022 you will definitely die.
So, I guess what I'm saying to you here is that if you want to live past 50 sometimes you have to learn to live with Temporary Medical PTSD periodically. (especially if you want to live to 100).
IT appears to be just par for the course in surviving life after 50 or so.
However, I'm still alive at 78 even though I believed I might die January 4th 2026 and wasn't sure I could stay alive until my Hernia Surgery in late March of this year.
So, I'm still alive!
By God's Grace
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