If you have never seen people die that you love before then you really might not understand what is happening to the world

 I remember when my father died in 1985.  I didn't want his body to be sold to a hospital and his cadaver used for medical experimentation. He was a very religious man and wanted specific things to be done after he passed away. So, as my father's dutiful son I did exactly as he wished.

He wanted to be cremated but to make sure it was him being cremated I needed to observe my father's body right before I pushed it into the crematorium myself. Now, this is a lot to ask of anyone, even of a son. And it's true I was 37 then and used to dealing with difficult situations like raising children and watching my father die and removing his guns when he was shooting holes in the wall because he was on codeine which makes people hallucinate as it kills their pain. He was under medical supervision towards the end of his life and given codeine to kill the pain of his end of life.

So, when I opened up the cardboard box that they put bodies into before they put them in a crematorium which is like a giant gas oven that gets really hot, I saw my father's beautiful steel blue eyes were flattened by the dryness of the desert. I think otherwise I would have been okay with this but this got to me to see his eyes open and flattened by the dryness. I kissed my father's head goodbye and pushed his body into the crematorium. This was in 1985.

I did the same for my mother in 2008 many years later. Because I was being their dutiful son and they wouldn't have expected any less from me. But, both experiences sort of haunted me in various ways and still do.

So now, I tend to see my parents when they and I were young int he 1950s when they were in their 30s. So, in 1954 I would have been 6 years old which would make my mother 35 and my father a very young looking 38 years old instead of what they looked like just before they died.

I guess what I'm saying here is that if you haven't dealt with a dead body of one you loved all your life while they were alive you have no idea at all what ALL the people (a million or more now worldwide) are dealing with as they are dutiful to their parents, Grandparents and friends as they all die one by one from Coronavirus worldwide and continue to die the next few years here on earth.