A Heightened interest in Self Preservation? Part II

 So, as a result of promising my father I wouldn't become a professional pilot or actually get my pilot's license until he passed away I made this agreement with my Dad knowing he couldn't lose me after losing his younger brother who the whole family said, "Was the nicest person in the family and a blonde haired handsome adonis who was also a gymnist with amazing skills of coordination and strength and could spin around a bar and let loose and fly through the air and land on both feet on the ground.

However, his death (whatever the actual cause) or did he die at all wiped out his parents and the whole family in many ways in which they never recovered from this( the parents and the 4 children left including my father his older brother and their two younger sisters.

So, I knew my father couldn't handle me crashing a plane so I promised him not to be a professional pilot in order to honor him having and raising me so well.

However, this also left me upset and not doing what I actually wanted to do in life.

However, like the rest of my family I'm always very innovative and figured out other things to do wiht my life like own businesses get married and have a family and this worked for me too because I always wanted to be a Dad. Why?

I found children way more interesting than Adults especially in the 1950s when everyone literally had PTSD to one degree or another from the Great Depression and World War II.

Everyone who survived the Great Depression and World war II that survived it was kind of nuts from the experiences they had then and many self destructed any way that you can imagine.

We are all the survivors of those who actually survived all this which is no small thing may I say. Because many many many adults and children did not survive world War II especially who were Americans worldwide and more civilians died than soldiers to make a total of 900,000 dead Americans worldwide from World War II.

In comparison all the people who have died in Ukraine so far is 100,000 people whereas in World War II

100 million people died worldwide and 20 million of these people were in Russia which is really awful too.

So, over time I realized that I had a Heightened interest in Self preservation even as I took many physical risks like Rock Climbing in Yosemite and Castle Crags. However, many people I knew didn't survive doing things like this. So, i gave up rock climbing when my son was born when I was 26 so I would be alive to raise. him right. So, becoming a father helped me to survive all the way now to 77 years old.