Lifetimes

By the time you make to to 65  you have already lived lifetimes. I was talking to a friend of about 10 years tonight who I hadn't spoken much about my history I the time before I met he and his wife and daughters. As I told the story of my life before I knew him I realized it still sort of haunts me because this is my third marriage and I was married the 3rd time before I met he and his wife. As I was telling him some things about my life I could sort of tell he was a little blown away by what I was telling him. Because my life was completely different than it is now in my 2nd marriage. There is no real way to compare the differences because it was such a different experience than the one I'm having now.

But, like all lifetimes as you move through your life, each new lifetime has different good and bad aspects than the one you lived before. So, the best way I can put it is it is like successive reincarnations within the same lifetime. I suppose some people's lives are not like this but mine was.
And it has always been interesting, at times terrifying and overwhelming to the point where I didn't think I would survive it. But I did because of my faith in God and the Holy Spirit and God and Jesus and Saint Germain always guiding me to something better whenever a change was necessary in my life.

So, after talking to my friend tonight I noticed I felt a little haunted by a life I left behind in the early 1990s and wanted not to think about it all anymore and to escape once more into my present life where things make sense more to me now. "Life goes on with us or without us". So just like the Zen of "Carry Water Chop Wood" being pragmatic enough to survive whatever life throws at you is necessary or you just won't be here anymore.