This actually happened to me in 1998. I had been trying to get custody of my oldest daughter because she wasn't safe in the situation she was in and I spent a large amount of money trying to protect my oldest daughter from harm. Though she is okay today she still is dealing with some aspects of PTSD from what she went through but is now happily married and lives in Europe and the U.S. and is presently here in California with her husband.
But, at that time I was really angry at how stupid the courts can be regarding the protection of children. When I learned that a mother who admitted giving LSD to her children was still given custody of them I began to realized just how screwed up the child custody legal system really was then in the 1990s. This wasn't a problem I was dealing with but illustrates how wayward and backward the child custody system is regarding fathers and custody actually can be.
So, I was so angry I almost died from my anger. I manifested in a heart virus and I nearly died. The main problem was I also had a 3 year old daughter with my new wife and they didn't need me to die either and my older daughter, even though I had won joint legal custody of her by that point, I didn't have primary physical custody which would have made all the difference in the world to all of us.
So, I had to realize as I as dying for 8 months time that I needed to let go of my anger and give it to God. Otherwise, all my children were going to lose me.
I was 50 years old at the time and this forced me to retire or die.
But, God was working through me because I had been praying for the "Leisure to Practice" which is a hallmark of Tibetan Buddhism. Leisure to practice means "Having the time to pray 24 hours a day for yourself and your family and all mankind."
So, by a miracle I survived and didn't die. And also by a miracle I was given the "Leisure to practice and pray 24 hours a day too".
The day I believed I was dying I called my son to drive me to the hospital. I knew if I called an ambulance I would die in the ambulance like my father did in 1985. So, I called my son to take me as I knew this was what I should do.
As I waited for my son angels surrounded me in my living room and I believed they were taking me home.
But, instead the spoke in unison over and over again: "You aren't going to die! Your life will get Better now!"
They just kept saying this over and over again until every cell in my body believed them. My human mind had trouble with all of this but because every cell in my body believed them I'm still alive today 22 years later.
I would have to tell you the best years of my life have been since I recovered in may 1999 and didn't die. I have had near misses and almost died several times since then from various things. But, the most amazing part of my life so far has been the "Leisure to practice" that God has given me that i started praying for in 1980.
By God's Grace
PS. Both my daughters grew up and my older son got his Bachelor's of Science degree too and all my children but the youngest are happily married too and I'm a grandfather twice now.
By God's Grace
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