Searching for a Superior Path

Throughout my 20s I was searching for a superior path. The path of my childhood and young adulthood had failed me and almost cost me my life so I was searching desperately for the right path for me that would make me a good and useful person and take me to enlightenment and to heaven hopefully here on Earth first and then continue after I passed over.

I believe I had a lot of help from Beings like Jesus and Saint Germain and Archangel Michael all my life. Because without all of them likely I would have died of whooping cough at age 2. But, as I lay dying in my Grandmother's lap one Christmas (1950) Archangel Michael appeared to me in a large sphere of very bright light accompanied by his group of Archangels that he often travels with. When this happened it saved my life so I can witness here that Archangel Michael and his band of Archangels first saved my life at age 2.

So, I believe a lot has always been expected of me or they wouldn't have done this. But, during my 20s (especially 21 to 24) it was very hard for me to wish to be alive. My method was always having   a girlfriend that loved me. In this way even if I wanted to die I had to stay alive for her out of respect for her love for me.

This worked until my son was born when I was 26. After this my responsibility in raising my son (and then the rest of my children to adulthood) kept me alive and strong after this. It put me in a more militaristic stance in that I needed to stay focused always to protect them and to work so they could survive and have a good life.

But, at the same time I was always searching for a better path that would help not only me but all mankind. I finally succeeded when I discovered the path of compassion. Always before I had been afraid of non-dualism because I couldn't understand it properly. Finally, one day it was explained to me in a way I could fathom and it changed my life completely. I came to see non-dualism much like the weather. Is the weather good or bad? It is both and neither because it depends upon who it is happening to. For example, say there is a tornado with heavy rain that floods but there has been a drought in that state for a year or two. The people hit with the tornado and who were injured or died would say the tornado was a bad thing. But, the people whose lakes and ponds filled with water so their cattle and horses and sheep could drink and so they could water their crops and stay alive would say the rain was a blessing from God. So, was the storm good or bad? It was both and neither. And fortunately or unfortunately often this is how life is every single day. You cannot describe it as either good or bad unless you are a child believing in fairy tales. If you are an adult you have to see life as it really is. It is not good or bad most of the time. Instead it is mostly everything at once.

In a world like this compassion often is the best tool and the most powerful tool of all. To the person whose lake or pond filled up you can say, "I'm really happy your pond or lake filled up". To the person who was hurt or lost a relative in a tornado you can say, "I'm sorry you got hurt and your friend or relative died." You might take this person in and make sure they get food and psychological help or even try to get them to their church if this is what they believe.

By living in a world governed by compassion you can help yourself, your family, and everyone you meet. But if you live in a fairy tale that doesn't match reality oftentimes you will just become confused and lose your way because the real world doesn't match your view of it.

So, compassion can be practical and because wise compassion can be practical it is a very powerful path. I didn't fully realize then just how powerful this path was. Only as I lived it through the years could I fully see just how amazing and powerful this path really is.