This was one of the most profound experiences of my life. It would be difficult for most of you to actually fathom how deep this affected the rest of my life.
I had been studying with more than one medicine man for three years time with my wife and children and my friend and his girlfriend. In 1983 I would have been 35 years of age and still had my health so I could do this sort of thing. The idea was to not eat food or any water at all. (not put anything but air into your body for 96 hours or 4 24 hour days. My friend's girlfriend had already done this and I had just been shown to do the same. All four of us eventually did this within a year of this date in 1983 by the way.
I can only tell you about my experience I realize because each of you might have a different experience completely. But, I was asking what to do with my life from God other than be a Dad and run businesses. So, this was a vision quest about what the meaning of my life was actually about.
So, the first two days in a bear wallow on the south fork of the trinity river it was difficult because my brain kept saying things like: "You are out here in the wilderness with no phone or 911 and if you screw this up you are going to die. You are going to starve. This isn't going to work. But I persevered even with my mind going ape shit through all of it because it was the right thing to do in the right timing. So, I did it anyway through self discipline. The point is to pray without ceasing for 4 days whenever you are awake and not asleep or having visions from not eating or drinking anything at all.
I would not recommend this for everyone simply because I don't know your mental and physical and emotional state going into this. Each person would have to decide for themselves whether this would be useful or whether they were likely to survive something like this instead of taking your visions seriously enough to run screaming through the forest until they were impaled by a tree branch sticking out in the dark or hitting their head in the dark on a tree or rock or falling off a cliff.
So, you really have to be an adult to pull this off to begin with and feel comfortable in the wilderness like I did then for this to be useful.
So, about 2 days in of no water or food or anything I started to have the visions. Now these kinds of prayer visions are different in that your experience of them is as real as me typing this or you reading this. It is not like having a dream at night where you might not be fully involved or invested. You are really experiencing this and to your subconscious mind and even to your conscious mind this is as real or even more real than physical reality.
So, when I became a huge Golden Dragon much bigger than most houses I was at once Amazed, Terrified, overwhelmed and in a completely different vision reality. And I knew at the time that this was one of the visions I had been praying for. And Yet, because my path is as a soul traveler I could separate my visions from what my physical body should be doing which was staying still. These really powerful dreams happen at night mostly so you can have your eyes wide open if you wish and they still will take place in the pitch dark of the wilderness or clouds or even in moonlight. In the vision I was really a huge Golden Dragon bigger than a house. But then, I breathed fire out onto thousands and thousands of people but they didn't catch fire and burn up. Instead they smiled and became enlightened, which was really surprising to me at the time.
So, one way I equate this vision years ago now is when I blog at this and previous websites and also at dragonofcompassion.com which in some ways is named after this vision in 1983. In other words I see the vision as being prophetic of the future which it has been. When the vision quest was over later that year I started meeting Tibetan Lamas in California and ORegon and by 1985 I went to India and Nepal with my family and met even more Tibetan Lamas, especially in Bodhgaya during the Kalachakra Tantra given to 500,000 people from all over the world and in Dharamshala
where the Dalai Lama and around 10,000 Tibetan Refugees lived then in 1986 when I visited there after the Kalachakra in Bodhgaya.
By God's Grace
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