conditioning
/kənˈdiSHəniNG/
noun
- the process of training or accustoming a person or animal to behave in a certain way or to accept certain circumstances."social conditioning"
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Conditioning, in physiology, a behavioral process whereby a response becomes more frequent or more predictable in a given environment as a result of reinforcement, with reinforcement typically being a stimulus or reward for a desired response.
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For example, almost any kind of experience (if the animal or person survives it) might become somewhat normal for that person or animal over time.
The point I'm trying to make here is that some people are conditioned to believe in God growing up and some people are conditioned to believe in Buddha Growing up and some people are conditioned to believe in Science Growing up and some people are conditioned to basically believe in nothing growing up and all these different kinds of conditioning has different kinds of effects on people's lives.
My conditioning was from two people who were ministers of a church from the time I was 6 to 12 years old in Los Angeles. I often say this kind of experience I had was both the best and the worst thing that ever happened to me.
Why?
Because on the one hand it taught me to be polite in a certain kind of way and that was a good thing for me to be polite. IN another way by age 8 or 9 I learned to speak with people who were rich, poor, middle Class or Crazy and how to be polite to them who went to our church. I found this invaluable growing up and being grown up because I could be patient literally with almost any kind of person I met. It also taught me to analyze everyone I met to see what kind of person they were at core too.
So, being raised by mystical Christian Ministers was good in that it taught me to be polite to everyone I met. It also taught me to counsel people no matter what their problems were. This as a young men often made girls i met fall in love with me because I would listen to their problems and often offer solutions since I am a very logical and practical person. So, I could remain calm while giving people ideas for solving their problems. In my 20s for a while I studied to be a psychologist because training as a minister in some ways is like learning to be a psychologist too in that people often come to you with their problems wanting them solved, especially when people die in their families. My mother gave about 300 funerals while my father and mother were in charge of their church from the time I was 6 to 12 years of age also.
So, this part of the conditioning was useful to me.
However, as a 21 year old the church became too paradoxical like many or most churches are and they didn't want me to ask certain questions that all churches don't want people to ask. And when people persist in asking real scientific logical questions often you are told to leave that church around the world. So, churches often are a game but if you question the rules in a logical way then you can no longer play the game. So, in this way it is sort of like Football or any other game with rules that cannot be questioned no matter what.
So, this part of the church conditioning was bad for me because I wasn't going to stand for being lied to about many different things because all churches are hypocritical in many different ways always. And this hypocrisy wasn't going to work for me as an adult. However, the emotional consequences of all this almost cost me my life through suicide between 21 and 25.
So, conditioning that you receive growing up might kill you between 12 and 30 if you don't get a handle on it like I did.
I found I had to re-parent myself to create a new me to survive in the world the way it really is rather than to try to fit into a game that was hypocritical and not working for me or anyone really.
It's sort of like watching a bunch of people in really bad marriages that stay together for the kids. You often watch people self destruct one by one in these kinds of situations.
So, instead of self destructing I re-parented myself and re-designed myself for the world the way it really is and not just in a fantasy.
So, in this way I survived my conditioning, but just barely.
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