Healing

For me, and for many of you, the hardest thing to survive and to stay alive through is relatives and friends that we are close to passing away.

But, they always come back and visit us in our dreams and daydreams when we least expect it. Often these days I will wake up in the morning and say to myself, my aunt, my Dad or my Mom just came and visited me and it was a good experience and I felt the healing of seeing them again in that dream.

Did they really come and visit me?

You have to be the judge of that for yourself. However, as an intuitive and after studying Tibetan Buddhism I find that everything is simultaneously real and unreal. And if you understand this it means that physical life is both real and unreal and your dreams are both real and unreal. The only problems really arise when you get too attached to one thing or another.

For example, I had a deja vu in the 1980s which told me I was going to eventually get divorced and remarried. That was the last thing I wanted to see and I was very crestfallen knowing I would have to deal with a second divorce in my life and I tried to push it all away with my mind.

But, sure enough about 10 years later I divorced and remarried and without a new and good marriage I likely wouldn't have survived this transition. So, as I struggled in the Mid 1990s to embrace my new marriage and newly born daughter I was struggling to do this before my previous marriage destroyed me. And my previous marriage nearly took my life even after remarrying when I couldn't get full custody of my then 5 years old daughter in my last marriage. I eventually in 1998 got a heart virus (I believe from my anger at not getting full custody of my then 5 year old daughter. So, this almost killed me between 1998 and 1999 through a heart virus. I had to deal with things I never would have believed I could survive within myself.

But, experiences with Mother Mary the Mother of Jesus and with Angels before I went to the hospital in which the angels yelled out to me, "You aren't going to die, your life will get better now" in unison over and over until every cell of my body understood whether my mind fully did or not. So, unlike most people then I didn't die of my heart virus. So, when I couldn't oxygenate my blood instead of panicking (this is what kills most people with a heart virus) I went into a deep meditation which prevented me from panicking each time I passed out. (if you can just stop yourself from panicking each time you pass out from your heart not beating fast enough to oxygenate your blood, sometimes like me you don't die. Because after you pass out your body automatically starts breathing again on it's own if you haven't panicked and caused yourself to die first.

So, the angels were right. After 8 months of thinking I might die and refusing to die because I had a 2 1/2 year old daughter and a 9 or 10 year old daughter from my previous marriage as well as grown kids too (20 to 25 year olds) I was told by my doctor that I wasn't going to die and told that they had found through the process of elimination that I had had a heart virus and I was going to live.

This was after the death of my wife's stepmother, then her mother, then a miscarriage of our child she was carrying I found out in May of 1999 that I wasn't going to die from what was wrong with me.

The Angels were right. My life got better and I didn't die. By God's Grace!

I got to be in both my young daughter's lives and to watch them grow up and travel to wonderful places in the U.S. and Europe and Hawaii with them several times since 1999 starting that fall. I took my youngest daughter and my mother to visit where my mother's mother and father grew up near Glasgow, Scotland. We also went to England, Germany, Austria, Switzerland and northern Italy by renting a diesel powered motor home in Munich and driving all the way to Italy with my then 25 year old son and his friend, my mother and my 10 year old older daughter.

So, open yourself up to God's healing so you can live to be with your children too so they can get a good start in life! By God's Grace!

So, find a way to open yourself to God's healing in your lives. Sometimes this is a life or death choice. By God's Grace!