Going to Palomar College in 1971 saved my life

Why?

I was suicidal from a break up with 2 girlfriends. I was only 21 and I couldn't have believed I could be in love with 2 girls at the same time then. On top of this I had also a breakup with my childhood church which also made me suicidal because I lost my friends from all over the world then including Australia, Scotland, England, Switzerland and France and Germany. So, I was despondent losing all these friends because I was separating from my childhood church.

So, when I moved from Venice, California to San Diego County and then starting taking Philosophy Courses from a professor who had been to Japan and studied Zen Buddhism there called Gene Sager it began to save my life. I spoke up in class and always got As in this philosophy class because I was really suffering and trying to find a way to stay alive then in my life.

Mr. Sager and his wife helped me a lot to find my way forward and then I began to take Psychology classes too and then Anthropology classes. 

This is where I learned that I was a natural shaman according to the definition of my Cultural Anthropology class I took there.

The Definition went something like this:

"A Shaman is a person who has psychologically died whose body still lives and who is because of this in touch with both the living and the dead and who sometimes can heal people."

This fit me completely, especially after blunt trauma childhood epilepsy and whooping cough which had permanently changed me.

Most boys were afraid girls then but for me, because of my near death experiences and because I was tall and handsome girls were like a flame for me and I was a moth to a flame in some ways.

So, in some ways I was moving in a way that was suicide by all the girls in my life then.

But, this also led to me meeting my first wife and having a son and getting married too.

So, life is very paradoxical in this way too because having a son and getting married kept me alive all these years to have more children and to start businesses to support them and to travel with my children all over the world.

By God's Grace