Writing for me is always spontaneous

 I discovered in trying to survive my 20s that spontaneity worked the best for me. I saw most people trying to plan their lives and mostly failing at this. My cousin likely was the only exception I ever met to this rule where he decided at 12 he wanted to be a lawyer and became a very successful one and is still a very successful lawyer even now at 78 years of age and loves what he does still and isn't interested at all in retiring yet.

But, this wasn't my experience. As a young man I first wanted to be an underwater photographer. I loved anything Cousteau from France made for TV on underwater discoveries and interesting things then. But, when I wanted to go to Scripps Institute of Oceanography I realized my grades were not exceptional enough to actually go there. So, I gave up this idea. Next, I wanted to be an airline pilot or a bush pilot in Alaska but my father made me promise not to get my pilot's license until he died because he had already lost one brother to a plane crash and couldn't also lose his only son to one too. So, I gave up this idea to keep the well being of my father.

These two things sort of so threw a monkey wrench into the plans of my life that I never really recovered. Then to make matters worse I was in love with two different girls that I wanted to marry. This didn't make any sense to me at all at the time because I wasn't grown up and mature enough yet to believe that this was possible.

So, in order to continue staying alive I found that the ONLY way I could do this (especially from 21 to 25) was to live moment by moment and day by day. Otherwise, I soon would be gone.

Of course there are many other factors here too like whooping cough as a child and a concussion at age 9 with seizures at night which gave me a form of medical PTSD I suppose too. 

This had the effect of making me not afraid of women to the point where I was sort of a moth to a flame (the flame being all the women in my life ongoing).

But, this finally resolved itself at 26 when I got my live in girlfriend pregnant and we decided to get married and I had to make a commitment to financially take care of them both.

This in some ways was the best thing that ever happened to me.

But, I continued in a spontaneous way and my writing still reflects this spontaneous way of living in my life.

When you are spontaneous you live by becoming an opportunist of the moment in regard to all things in your life. This has taken me all over the world, starting businesses, and traveling just about everywhere eventually. Although I haven't been traveling outside of the U.S. since Covid simply because I'm 73 and would prefer to stay alive to 100 if I can now.

But, in my writing it is almost always spontaneous and often I will wake up with something God has shown me about in a dream or vision so that I will write about it to help others.

By God's Grace