Many people around the world are alienated from themselves around the world. The main reason for this is others (like parents or friends or other relatives) trying to make us be something that we cannot be. However, often they don't realize what they are asking is actually impossible because they don't live in our bodies or experience what we are experiencing every day.
So, my project, once I realized it was possible in my early 20s in college by studying psychology was to reparent myself to create a life I could actually stand to live.
I couldn't stay alive and live the life my parents wanted for me.
But, after studying the principles of psychology in college I did realize that I might be able to create a world that I could actually enjoy living in. It just wasn't the world that my parents wanted for me because they were not me living in my body. They lived in a world that began when they were born in 1916 (my father) and in 1919 (my mother). However, I was born in 1948 so absolutely EVERYTHING was different for me than it was for them growing up.
So, there was no real way for them to understand what I was experiencing beyond a certain point. And when I tried to explain it to them they probably got only about 1/2 of what I was trying to tell them.
They meant well but couldn't fully understand who I was or who I had become.
So, to survive my 20s I reparented myself. One of the ways I created a new me was by writing down my experiences so I could understand myself better so I would be less fragmented than most 20 somethings are.
I succeeded in parenting myself again and raising myself again and was very happy by my 30s from doing this married and raising children and working and running businesses.
But, if I had tried to do what my parents wanted I would have been dead by 25. But, at least I was wise enough to see this was true which is why I reparented myself and recreated myself to be someone who could actually survive 100 years or more here on earth and be happy here.
By God's Grace
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