I think it's hard for anyone to actually make real sense of life growing up

 People try to tell you all sorts of things that are your elders and peers. However, often unless you can find your own way and ask your own questions and live your own life you don't survive these other people's ideas and then one can self destruct as we have all witnessed people around us do in one way or another.

So, finding a way for your life to become meaningful enough to continue living it was a chore for me (until I got married and had a son). Then living on for my wife and son became something that made more sense to me than living on for myself.

I was never interested really in continuing to be alive for myself. I find that there are many kinds of people and some are very selfish and others don't find value in being like this.

So, the problem of not being selfish in desperately wanting to be alive is a real one if people want to continue to be alive in a body here on earth.

So, for myself living on for others always made more sense than living on for myself.

However, it's true that I have wants and needs just like anyone else and always have.

However, what I'm talking about is: "Having a useful reason to put up with all the BS in life enough to actually choose to stay alive and for me at least this is something very different."

So, until I was taking care of others like my wife and son I didn't have a good enough reason to stay alive putting up with all the problems of physical existence ongoing forever.

However, I found that for myself at least taking care of others very satisfying to the point where I was raising at least one child under 18 years of age from 1974 until 2014 which is a very long time from the birth of my first son until my youngest biological daughter graduated from High school in 2014.

But then there is always "The Empty Nest Syndrome" which is very hard to deal with too if you are a real parent and it is your Calling in life.

Luckily, then my wife and I could parent each other and our dog (which right now is a Blue Merle Corgi) who likely thinks she is one of our children or grandchildren which makes sense to me.

So, finding a good enough reason to stay alive at all I have found is important at every stage in life.

by God's Grace