Why? I think the last year or years have been way to overwhelming for me especially almost dying for a couple of months before my surgery and then having to recover from that for 6 weeks and then falling and bruising my ribs so whenever I coughed I was like being stabbed with a knife. I suppose what was good about it was that at least it didn't hurt every time I breathed. I have had several friends who had that and they said that was completely hell where every breath hurt from cracked ribs both in and out 24 hours a day until they healed.
So, I would chalk this up to what I call "Medical Temporary PTSD". I think if you live past 40 or 50 especially you likely will have to deal with this at some point where you know things are really different than anything you were used to before and you have to find some healthy way to adapt to all the changes.
However, it is also true that I had whooping cough at 2 and then by 9 years old had a rock climbing concussion and night time seizures for 5 years periodically any time I was stressing over a test at school especially. So, maybe I'm just used to deal with more health issues starting when I was a child than most people today.
I have noticed that all the people with perfect health who never seem to get sick or have any serious health problems often die the first time something serious happens to them because they really haven't ever had to face really serious health issues in their life and don't know how to survive or adapt to serious health issues.
One thing I can share is to never fully give up. You might go to bed and night and be close to tears because of what you are dealing with but you need to let it all go before you sleep so you can be reborn so you can have hope potentially the next day. If you can't die daily Psychologically at least to yourself or to God then I don't see how anyone can deal with anything serious in their lives ever.
This is my thought about all this.
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