So, this is important to understand regarding many of the things I wrote then. However, if I try to go back and delete these texts from 2015 It would take me hours and hours and hours to do this now because of the way this site is set up. I can most easily change what I have programmed into this site the things I worked on in the last few months. However, things published years ago it is almost impossible to change easily.
So, I think it's important to understand I was experiencing Medical PTSD and I wasn't sure I was even going to survive that year until Christmas of 2015 where I finally believed I was going to live through what I was experiencing.
To say that most people likely would have died in what I experienced that year would be the most effective way to say this.
Like I said in a previous Article: "You don't know what you can survive until you have to."
The other statement that is important here is likely for me at least: "Alls well that ends well!"
So, from 2016 to now I was able to reduce the Medical PTSD a lot just by asking the anesthesiologist to not Intubate me because this is the biggest problem I had in surviving that year. Why?
However, even though she did intubate me it wasn't the problem of the emergency burst appendix Laparoscopic operation where people thought they were saving my life. However, the truth was possibly that I could have survived without this operation I believe now and so the operation nearly killed me and also gave me a Naval Hernia which harmed my life a lot between 2015 and my operation to fix it on March of 2026.
So, the operation in 2015 reduced the quality of my life a lot because I was told not to lift more than 40 pounds with this hernia Until I had it operated on. But, that wasn't usefully possible for a variety of reasons until march of 2026. So, if I dropped my motorcycle I couldn't usefully pick it up with this hernia. Also, it made it relatively unsafe for me to ski downhill or Metal Edged Mountaineering skiing if I fell down I might die with this type of hernia because it was so large (at least a 3 1/2 to 4 1/2 inch tear.
Because the Easter 2015 operation put me in severe sleep deprivation for a month to where I was only able to sleep about 1 hour a day because the intubation caused me to cough so much. Then I put new tires on my motor home and left for Mt. Shasta only to black out while driving from lack of sleep around Corning and I almost hit a Gasoline Tanker Truck. So, as you can see I was having a really bad time of it. Then I called a friend (who has since passed away) and my ex-wife to help me drive my motor home north to Mt. Shasta at that time. It was a struggle to return my life to any normalcy at all but I succeeded during that year. However, it is likely that many of my blogs from April to December are strange even to me so it's like someone else wrote them not me.
If you have ever had medical PTSD which is hopefully temporary and eventually goes away you can understand what happened to me that year.
One of the more humorous ideas I had then was to start a Motorized paraglider club of people who flew around Mt. Shasta. Another idea that is funny to me now is that I tried to buy several Honda Trail 90s on Ebay and was banned for life in using EBay because I wasn't myself then.
First of all, paragliders flying around Mt. Shasta is usually a death sentence which I realize now because of the wind currents there and hang glider pilots used to die on Shasta in the old days because the wind currents that make beautiful lenticular (UFO) Clouds also kill Hang Glider pilots and paraglider pilots who are foolish enough to try to ride these currents and are smashed into Mt. Shasta at various altitudes.
For example, my son has an extreme case of Myasthenia Gravis which is an auto-immune disease that has almost killed him basically almost every day. So, because of what happened to me I recognize some of the signs of Medical PTSD in my son. So, I'm encouraging him almost every day to stay alive for his 12 year old son and wife and the rest of the family and friends. And so far he has succeeded.
But, if he doesn't take his medicine every 3 hours he stops breathing. So, imagine you are going through this!
Could you survive this? Maybe and maybe not.
However, I think because he is a trained Nurse with a Bachelor of Science in Nursing it is likely he will find a way to physicially stay alive through this.
Once again, "You don't know what you can survive until you have to!"
When you actually face death in all it's potential forms you are much stronger than you presently believe!
This is true from the experiences of myself and my son who is now 52 and I'm 78.
A bout with Covid is what Gave my son finally Myasthenia Gravis about 2 or 3 years ago. Doctors and nurses were very surprised he had survived the first year. However, now he has found a way to keep going somewhat physically and psychologically.
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