When you lose your fear of death you lose your fear of life as well

I was watching "To Heaven and back" on CNN tonight which is a special that shows three people who died and went to heaven and came back during the one hour special program.

It reminded me a lot of my own experiences over the years. From whooping cough at age 2 to Blunt trauma childhood epilepsy to a Heart Virus in 1998 and 1999 to being healed for a 3rd time and regaining my health even though my wife begged me to retire at 50 so I did for her and for our then 2 1/2 year old daughter who is now 17.

So, here in 2013 I'm still here. If you watch Ben Breedlove who was  a Youtube sensation before he died, his experience was the most like mine was from age 10 to 15. Only instead of dying I outgrew my ailment. I know now (the last couple of years) from my son who was getting his bachelor of Science in Nursing that I had blunt trauma childhood epilepsy because it is the only kind of epilepsy you can grow out of. So, as I thought I was dying one day I just grew out of it. But, that was not my experience of it. My experience was being in a state where a seizure was about to begin and instead of having a seizure I invoked God to come live in my body with me. As soon as I did this my seizure stopped completely and I never had another seizure again. The only problem with this was now I was sharing my body with God literally. This likely would kill most people and I also was frightened sharing my body with God because it was just too powerful to cope with as  human being. But over a few years I became more adapted to this way of life (and besides this was better than dying). But, getting used to supernatural events taking place all the time in my life really did take some getting used to. I think God chose me to do this for some reason and I'm okay with it now even though it was fairly terrifying at times during my late teens and early 20s. But now, I've grown used to the comfort of God living with me and God also living with everyone around me as a result.

Though this sounds funny the only way I can properly describe this is it is sort of like living in the old Testament and the way they talk in the Old Testament for real here in the 21st Century now. The big difference might be to say that Jesus and his Mother Mary and Saint Germain and Archangel Michael are all here too. This is my life now since 1963 when I was 15. And in some ways like Ben Breedlove it has taught me never to be afraid of death whether it comes tonight, tomorrow or 10,000 years from now for any of us. Because "When you lose your fear of death you lose your fear of life".