The Butterfly effect in our own lives

If we start with the philosophical premise that I have found holds generally true in the physical world at least of Descartes which is:

"There is nothing so good that no bad may come of it and nothing so bad that no good may come of it."

Then in applysing the "Butterfly effect" of Chaos theory to literally any situation it should come about about like Descartes saying above somewhat.

I was thinking about the Butterfly effect of one decision in my own life, for example.

I was growing tired of the hyporcrisy in my own church and in fact all churches and people I observed going to church.

(But, of course my life experience was low because I was only 18 to 21 years of age.

My father told me that my idealism of youth was going to get me ostracized from my church and
my response was, "If people cannot accept me the way I am then I don't want to be a member of this or any other church."

My father was right. I had no idea of the consequences to my own life and this took me to the edge of suicide for many years because of the 100s of friends I had around the world that no longer could talk to me because they were forbidden to by my church once I was excommunicated for being too 60s for them.

My idealism was great. It's just then I had to deal with the real world in which people make often only pragmatic decisions because other ones often people die from.

So, my 20s were all about rediscovering myself (without a church) and realizing I was just too independent in my thoughts and actions to ever fit into any church because of the Free thinker my father had trained me to be by debating with me since I was about 8 years old.

So, what did the Butterfly effect do here?

First it almost killed me and then I stayed alive to honor my parents and later I stayed alive to raise my son right and to take care of my children ever since.

Through all this I found I was a householder Yogi and a family man and that this was my yoga while I was becoming enlightened in all ways.

And what do I think of all churches now?

They aren't for everyone and often they destroy as many lives as they save.

By the way churches have absolutely nothing at all to do with God.

God is a personal experience we all have and anytime ANYONE comes between you and God it is a very big mistake.

So, to summarize my Butterfly effect decision first almost killed me and then saved me and created me into a very very different person than I was before. And now I'm even more unwilling to give up my free will to any church at all.

However, I talk with God 24 hours day and this is 1000s of times more efficient than anything I had before.

To God Too.