How do you let go of the past 2000 to 3000 years?

Psychology Today

The above article word button started this line of thinking in me today.

So, when I read psychology today I realized most stuff I was dealing with in my life wasn't mine at all. It was hangups and conditioning passed down from time immemorial from relatives. So, I released it realizing it wasn't mine to have to carry.

By doing this I no longer had to commit suicide.

So, I had to get to the point where I said to myself. Do I want to live?

Or do I want to carry all this shit that isn't mine in the first place?

I decided to live and to let it all go.

Because if I didn't let it go I would be dead.

This decision was the beginning of the end of my suffering.

At that time in 1971 I was dealing with 3 basic problems:

1. I was 4 f and didn't have to be drafted (I felt guilty about this that God had saved me from the draft even as people I knew of were coming home in boxes or worse coming home with PTSD and wandering the streets for the rest of their lives.)
2.  In 1969 I had been asked to leave the religion my parents raised me in because I was too progressive for them to cope with anymore.

3. I had broken up with 2 different girls (or more I was in love with) but that wouldn't have made sense to me at the time then who were members of this religion.

So, the logical solution appeared to me to be suicide.

It took me until my girlfriend got pregnant in 1973 and my son's birth in 1974 to get me to the point of giving up suicidal thoughts and selfish thoughts.

So, in the meantime I had to figure out how to stay alive from November 1969 until summer 1973 (which I did).

One way was to always have a girlfriend who loved me so I couldn't off myself as long as she was in my life out of respect for her. This actually worked even though sometimes this seems a little much looking back at it. However, it did work until my live in girlfriend got pregnant  I got married and my son was born.

Then I became someone new, A Father, who is much different than the person I was before.

What surprised me the most was how much respect I got from people for getting married and taking responsibility for my wife and child. This surprised me more than anything because it was much more important to them then than me getting a college degree which also surprised me at the time.

So, if you can let go of the last 2000 to 3000 years of stuff built up by your relatives and ancestors you might prevent your own suicide too like I did.

By God's Grace