Moment by Moment

I tried planning my life like a lot of people do but I found that didn't really work for me. I wasn't going to stay alive that way. So, I decided to live moment by moment because planning always disappointed me so much that I had trouble wanting to stay alive at all.

So, I realized that I should be an opportunist and an entrepreneur which worked fine for me. Relationships with women became sort of like Science experiments where "Will this relationship work for me or for us?" like that.

Though I had grown up with a Disney movie fantasy about life and relationships it wasn't that at all. Though I might have believed there was just one woman for each man, the reality was that there might be 100 women or more that I might be happy with for a day, a week, a year or forever. This was the disappointing nature of real life I found. So, during my 20s I found all this to be true. Now at 71 I have been married 3 times with three biological children and I have been married to my last wife now for 25 years and am very happy in this relationship but if I hadn't learned all the things I learned in my first two marriages that wouldn't be true either.

So, being an entrepreneur and being an opportunist and being spontaneous in life and as compassionate as I could be and still survive everything has worked the best for me and for my children along the way.

So, moment by moment I have lived my life as spontaneously as possible.

So, when in Buddhism I learned about Spontaneous arisal from Voidness like Jesus and Buddha arose from Voidness as souls incarnating onto the earth, this made a lot of sense to me of just how important being able to be in the perfect right place at the perfect right time in consciousness and at the right place on earth for maximum blessings to oneself and for everyone else is the way to be.

At least for me.

By God's Grace