I find this helps my typing and hand I co-ordination and my mind and keeping everything integrated ongoing so I can continue to write the rest of my life.
When I was younger before my father died in 1985 when I was 37 I used to play music and write songs a lot and sing with my mother while playing piano or keyboards or even along with my playing guitar.
However, when my father died I was sad from his passing and lost heart in playing or singing music much anymore after that. The other thing that happened to me is I realized I didn't want to make any more friends that I could lose like I did my father. Losing my father nearly killed me because he and I were like a lot of men best friends I realize now. So, I lost my father as a best friend in 1985 in the summer then I lost my best friend from age 6 in 1954 from church in 2006 then I lost my best friend from High School in 2011. This is a lot of people who were a part of one's identity to lose in life by the way. So, all these people I lost before 13 years ago. When you lose people you were close to like this it changes a person because without them in your life you are no longer the same person anymore because they helped define how you saw yourself and when that is gone then in a way a part of you dies too along with them.
At first when my father died I tried to somehow sort of replace my father for my mother but that didn't work at all. Over time, I realized that all that was best about my father lived on in me. And when my mother died in 2008 I realized all that was best about my mother also lived on in me.
I think if you can honor your parents by being the best that they were then the best of them can live on in you and sometimes help people or even everyone you meet.
By God's Grace
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