By 1971 I had already tried to exit my body by Astral projecting my soul out of my body into the sky. (Into the Galaxy). However, when I tried this Archangel Gabriel told me that I had made a vow to God to do specific Work here on earth. I told him that I foresaw my own death in my 20s and so I was just ending my life before it became absurd to the point where I died.
He didn't disagree with me but said to me that "The Angels are giving you Soul Travel so you will survive your 20s so you can make it into your 30s when your life will be better."
I accepted what he said but wasn't looking forward to my 20s even though I was 20 years old then in 1968. So, I went on living because I wasn't allowed to exit my body permanently by the Archangels.
Then in 1971 I had moved by then to San Diego County and had returned to college. This time I wasn't studying Computer Science or Computer programming and I had worked in the Computer field some but had decided I wanted to do something else with my life instead.
So, I started by taking a couple of Philosophy Classes with a Teacher there called Mr. Sager who had gone to Japan and studied Buddhism before he became a philosophy Professor at Palomar College. I easily got an A in several of his classes and I think I reminded him of himself a little in how I approached reality and how I asked questions. Most of the students had no clue about philosophy because they hadn't faced anything as serious as I had in my life yet.
So, getting A's in those classes started me down a different path than computer science and I eventually evolved to the point where I realized I could become a psychologist. Also, I had taken a course in Cultural Anthropology and here is where I learned I was a natural shaman too.
The definition of a Shaman (male or female) was: "Someone who has psychologically died but their body still lives somehow" and it also said that they lived in both the physical world and the spirit world and because of this often could heal people. I had experienced all these things and so I could relate to all this somehow.
Also, I related to philosophical Inquiry which helped me ask the questions that led to my eventual survival and the life I lead now in my life.
Often times we are set on one path by our parents. They might be well meaning like my parents were. However, they were not me and couldn't fully understand me because they grew up as children in the 1920s and graduated high school in the 1930s during the Great Depression. Then they faced world war II and I didn't because I was born in 1948. So, because I was born after the two most traumatizing events they had both been through "The Great Depression" and "World war II" they couldn't understand fully someone who had not had their experiences. And at this point I can see the logic to this. However, they were kind and very well meaning but the life they wanted for me really would never work for me if I wanted to stay alive.
So, I learned from about age 21 to 25 what would actually keep me alive and what would make my life interesting enough to where I would actually choose to continue to be alive.
You see, on one level it doesn't really matter what your parents want for you if you cannot survive it.
If you honor your parents and it kills you what good is that?
So, I had to let go of what they wanted for me and choose a life I could stand to live and actually enjoy which is what I did.
But, studying Philosophy, Cultural Anthropology and Psychology was what allowed me to choose a life that I could stand to live and want to be alive for.
Also, by age 25 I met my first wife and had a son and this changed everything for me in a good way because I became a father and this gave me a purpose to actually make money and start businesses and all that so I could raise my son right.
The point is unless you choose your future you might not survive the one your parents choose for you.
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