From 1969 to 1973 I had no reason at all to stay alive. But, I realized I couldn't take my life because I couldn't do this to my parents. I couldn't do this to my relatives and I couldn't do this to my friends. So, I soldiered on and bit my lip and stayed alive even when there was nothing I wanted more than to be dead.
However, I was also a very handsome 6 foot 5 inch male and girls flocked to me. So, when I had a girlfriend I was dating then I would stay alive for her, and the next and the next.
Finally at age 25 while still in college studying to become a psychologist my live in girlfriend got pregnant and we got married.
No longer could I be selfish enough to think of what I needed because I had others I had to stay alive for besides my parents, my relatives and my friends and my girlfriends. Now I had a wife and son to stay alive for. So, it didn't really matter what I wanted anymore. I have been okay since then supporting my wife and children since 1973.
It's true I have now been married 3 times but each time I was married longer than the last one and my last marriage has been 30 years so far. I'm close with all my biological children and we have adopted another daughter who will be 40 this year. MY oldest child, a son is now 50 years old and is married with a 10 year old son himself.
However, the amazing life I have lived traveling all over the world and meeting interesting people everywhere I never could have lived if I was dead between 1969 and 1973.
Sometimes you just have to soldier on and push through because you never know what amazing thing might happen in your life and the world next.
By God's Grace
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