The Potential Nearness of Death tends to make you more Real

I was talking with my son who has an auto immune disease and is around 51 years old. He said to me: "If I didn't take my medicine I would stop breathing and be dead within 24 hours." I then said to him: "Yes. If I didn't take my medicines for Atrial Fibrillation or others I likely would be dead now within 3 to 4 days."

I might have shocked my son saying this to him but I realized he likely needed to know the truth about me as well if he didn't understand already. 

The point of all this is that these experiences tend to make a person more real about life. At least this is true of my son and I to where you have to have a certain toughness to stay alive facing potential death every day of your life.

I was worried about whether my son would stay alive at 50 anymore last fall until I saw him in person and he convinced me that he had the right mental and physical toughness to keep himself alive.

It's also interesting that I had my own heart virus at age 50 where I almost died then too and have had to be very careful ever since then too through various other health issues. I was lucky to start blogging and be able to use blogging as a spiritual discipline in staying alive. If you are forced to retire like I was at 50 and can survive it in all ways, blogging about your relationship with God and Angels like I have since 1999 in June in Various Blogs might help give you what you need to stay alive too.

Before this I was afraid to publish online. Recently when Stephen Colbert was axed by the government basically I started to realize that blogging (at least about politics) is no longer safe for the average person to do anymore. This is just one of many things I have realized because of the potential Nearness of Death in my life and in my son's life.

I have watched him (since he has always been a computer genius) work with AI as it has developed this past year. In the same way I was blogging he is making art and music through AIs around the world now as a therapy and a way to stay alive along with his wife and 11 year old son.

When I was up there I noticed he left his computer on one day and he had made a screen saver of hundreds of the artworks he has made that he has saved in various ways. He has also created hundreds or more musical works through various AIs too. We collaborated on one with my lyrics and possibly now there are two musical works with my lyrics as well which are pretty amazing too.

I have tried to stay back from AI to some degree simply as a matter of self preservation simply because I am more used to "The potential nearness of Death than my son is".

It was quite a shock to him to get this auto immune disease and an extreme case of it when he did so he almost didn't survive already. IN Fact he was so in denial of his illness (like many younger people tend to be) that the doctors and nurses were amazed he survived the first 6 months to a year of this at all.

So, when they told him this he realized he had been closer to death than he realized consciously. He even had an experience of being awake when he body stopped breathing and so had to breathe manually to stay alive. So, if he was asleep when he body did this he would be dead now.

So, I would say he is dealing with pretty severe Medical PTSD because of almost dying for so long.

I have found that dealing with the nearness of death (when it's in your face) is very hard to deal with.

Mostly what I have found is if you can talk with Angels and they talk back to you you tend not to die of panic like most people do when faced with death in reality and not just in theory.

So, whenever (since 1998 in the fall) I have asked Angels whether I was dying on not to be more prepared for death they have said to me: "You are not going to die now. This is temporary. In fact your life will get better now."

And every time they were right.

I can remember having to sit up in the living room at one point around 2012 or 2013 where I couldn't sleep in a bed for awhile and I had to just sit up on the couch in the living room and doze because I couldn't even sleep and be okay for weeks because of Atrial Fibrillation and other things. However, the angels were right and all that passed eventually.

I can remember trying to get out of a car at Haleakala Crater in Maui at 10,000 feet and not being able to breathe and almost passing out before someone else drove the rental car down to about 8000 or 7000 feet where I could breathe right again. 

However, when I was given my Pacemaker in 2020 ever since I can go to Haleakala and be okay breathing there once again.

So, my experience (because of the Angels talking to me) has always been quite Amazing and wonderful while I tend to watch many people die right and left at the first sign of illness because they panicked and died because they were not used to dealing with any serious illnesses.

I have this theory that the first to die by 50 or 60 are the people who have been completely well their whole lives because of this where they just don't know how to cope with serious illnesses so they suddenly die and are gone.

So, in this sense having had whooping cough at age 2 and seizures from age 10 to 15 at night from a concussion helped me survive everything else too.

So, perfect health might lead to perfect sudden death for people between ages 50 and 70 too. This is what I'm thinking now from what I have seen in people all around me.

So, learning to cope with serious illness is part of how people live to be 100 or more I presently believe.

By God's Grace