Writing down your thoughts and feelings can help you stay alive (whether you share this with anyone or not)

For example, I didn't share anything with people until I was about 50 years old publicly beyond Teachers or professors or relatives or friends.

Why did I start a blog in 1999?

Because I realized that I had a lot to share with mankind from my lifetime of experiences with life and God and that I owed it to myself and everyone else to share the wisdom I had garnered before I died.

In this way I might save lives that otherwise would have been lost.

I myself dealt with near death experiences from Whooping cough at age 2, from a rock climbing concussion from ages 10 to 15 where I had seizures at night and almost died from these.

Then as a 21 to 25 year old I had a hard time trying to want to stay alive in a body (even though I had many girlfriends). It wasn't until I got married because my girlfriend got pregnant that my life began to make any sense at all to me as an adult. Then I was okay with taking care of my wife and my children from 1974 onward.

I don't think I'm alone in thinking this way either. There was something really self destructive about growing up in the 1950s being a boy and then a man. maybe it has always been this way. I'm not sure.

However, without a wife and children being alive made no sense to me at all and I found myself somewhat self destructive without people to care for financially and otherwise.

So, getting married moved me to own businesses the rest of my life because this always interested me. I didn't like working for other people because I couldn't set my own hours when I worked working for others. I liked being able to do whatever I wanted to whenever I could get away.

This helped me survive my life too because if you cannot be where you need to be when you need to be there often you die because of this.

My son mentioned a guy who died working himself to death on the job at 86 years old at his workplace.

If this had been me I likely would have died on the job by age 30 because working for others never really worked for me at all. But, the same is true of most all the men in my family too. We all pretty much had our own businesses always at least by ages 27 or older.

By God's Grace