The Dance with Death

We all dance with death from the moment we are born or before. We just prefer to think about other things if we can. But, as an adult understanding death is equally important to understanding life. It's not that we need to think about death all the time it's just that it's always there looking over our shoulder. So, being realistic we have to recognize it for what it is.

This has always been easier for me as I watched friends do things that killed them mostly before age 30 because I had already almost died from Whooping cough and Childhood Epilepsy by the time I was 15 years of age (whooping cough age 2) and Childhood epilepsy from 10 to 15).

So, as I watched friends do really crazy things and almost die or actually die I wondered why they took such crazy risks in their lives. Then there were forced risks like the Viet Nam war that almost no one wanted to be a part of unless they were already suicidal in the first place and just wanted and honorable way to die.

So, for me, at least, the dance with death has always been very real. Not so much to people who ended their lives in crazy ways thinking God knows what at the time?

So, although I have always been a physical risk taker I have always been intuitive in knowing what I could survive and not survive just looking at it and into the future. So, if something didn't feel right I wasn't going to do it. Whereas if I got a good feeling about it I might do something really crazy (but if I knew I could survive it I always would). That's why it's good to know yourself. It allows you to be fearless in all your physical exploits.

However, then if you are wrong you are just dead like the rest of them.

In my 50s I had almost died from a heart virus in 1998 and 1999 and had had to retire. Then doctors told me they had figured out what was wrong with me and that I could now live a normal life span. This was pretty amazing after retiring and thinking it was all over then in Fall 1998. Except that the angels had told me I was not only going to live but that my life was going to get better over and over again even the first day when my lips went blue and I couldn't feel my fingers much because they were numb when I woke up. So, I called my son to come take me to the hospital because I knew if I called an ambulance I would die from all the disturbance to my internal world. So, I lived as the angels said I would even though I had to retire.

If you think about death the old statement, "Born died 20 buried 60" really says it all about life before 1900 worldwide.

It wasn't until at least 1950 where people might expect to even live to be 70 because of education and diet and exercise even here in the U.S.

So, the point is we all dance with death from the moment we are born and forgetting this sometimes we take risks we are incapable of surviving. Learning this is how we stay alive to our 60s, 70s, 80s and beyond.