It doesn't mean you have to share what you write right now but by sharing your feelings in your writings it helps you get beyond rage and depression to where you might be able to deal with what you are feeling.
It helps to write to know truly what you feel. Sometimes sharing with others might be helpful or with no one. Sometimes putting your writing away in a drawer and hiding it from the world and even yourself might be useful for you. Later when you find what you have written you will read it and either laugh or cry or think whatever you do then. But, either way bottling up what you feel is ONLY going to make you sick or get cancer and die or something. So, releasing your feelings into some form can be a part of your path to full enlightenment as a human being here on earth.
Look at me for example, I never published anything I wrote until I was 51 years old. What triggered my publishing online in my blogs? I had a heart virus and I realized I might die. I had to retire or I was told I would die. I survived and so in order to thank God for saving my life those 8 or 9 months I promised God while waiting in Fall at STanford Hospital next to Stanford University while waiting for an angiogram and electrical heart stimulation. Though the angiogram was interesting and almost fun the electrical Heart Stimulation was one of the worst experiences of my life up until then. But, what was amazing to me was that I went in at 8 Am and by 8 pm they sent me home. The miracles of Modern Medicine!
So, when my doctor told me I wasn't going to die because he had realized through the process of elimination that I had had a heart virus. he told me that I was very lucky because most heart virus patients die before they are diagnosed. So, Yes. I was very very lucky to survive this and the ONLY person I knew of then in 1998 or 1999 that actually survived something like this in California.
So, Write. Publish if you think it would be wise or useful or both. Otherwise, hide it in a drawer or trunk or somewhere on your computer or wherever until you are ready to reread what you have written. Write, so you can congeal your thoughts and make sense of what you feel when you couldn't before.
Raging and being afraid just doesn't work. Write what you feel and make some sense of all this to yourself so you can stay alive ongoing and not just jump off a cliff one day instead. Your thoughts and feelings are important because they might save not only your life but your family's lives and your friends lives as well!
Live On!
By God's Grace
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